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[no_lo_sai]

Hello from everyones favorite crazy obsessive bitch i just cant ......i have to stay everything i love is here so im gonna stay until the day it becomes too much to bear ..til the day i cant pretend anymore...and then i will step out for a smoke and disappear.i love them both i love everything about them...it doesnt matter anymore nothing matters but their happiness......i'll be fine til im not and then ill be gone i love you all i dont want to talk about this anymore.........i cant keep R because i know ill hurt him again.....i cant have C cause he belongs to someone else......raine likes A better than me....M is leaving.....D betrayed me.......and suddenly all the ppl in my head have gone silent for the first time in my life ....im afraid and alone and scared.....but its ok ...nothing really matters anymore.

i will love you forever.my heart is with you always.i am good at pretending.you will never know how you crushed me.i will be your friend because that is all you want from me