four of hearts

[no_less_thanrob]

Ha! I'm really going to get that tatoo. Loads of shit has happened since the last entry...really don't feel like typing it. Everyone knows it anyway. Same old bullshit, new day. I feel like every crush/fling/whatever, I'm in is temporary. I've fallen into this rut. Let's backtrack... Bryan (yeah, fling), Kory (makeout fling), Danny ( stupid fling), Clay (kissing). Not a good list at all. I don't know what I've got myself into, nothing I can't get out of, but what the fuck is it!? Really, I missed that memo. The last relationship I was in with a title was Tom. That was sophomore year and very short ("tyrant" ;) I'm crazy, I really don't think I'm ready for anything, and by that I mean like a real relationship. I think thats why I've been attracted to those guys. Because their not "boyfriend" material (but honestly what is?). I'm really afraid of getting hurt....or hurting someone. People change. So I've decided to make a rule for myself. Or a new outlook if you will, I'm not going to work for any kind of attention/romance/kissing/whatever in a guy. You never find it, or at least I don't. I seriously am quitting the game. I refuse to play it. No more. Steph is finished. I have to get out of this rut...
Enough!

Incubus rocked Friday. Ic an now say I'm an official fan. It was amazing. best concert ever.
Flogging Molly kicked ass as well, I love their sound!
my roommate is waking up so I'm gonna go....peace