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I am at the point to where I am asking myself "Why am I here? Why do I exist?"
Me and the guy I work with had an interesting conversation today. It was very humorous. We somehow got onto the subject about how we got here. He brought up how at one point we were sperm fighting other sperm to get to the egg to be alive. It hit us then that at one point we were fighting hundreds, (maybe thousands I am not really sure how it works) to get to the point to live! Basically, we were all sperm at one time fighting other sperm to get to the egg to become human! AND we won. HA! So really, we are all winners, we were all winners before we were even born! trippy, I know....
So, all day I have been wondering why I won. Why did I win against the rest to that egg? I was obviously stronger and faster when I was smaller then the human eye could even see. Why do I now feel like that now, after I have grown and learned so much? Maybe I have not learned as much as I thought. What does that have to do with being alive though? Is there a purpose for me? People die everyday. Friends, family, neighbors, strangers. Sometimes for good reason, a lot for no good reason at all, just unexpectedly...what the fuck is with that? Are we just disgusting creatures that keep breeding for no good reason at all? It's like we are bacteria. We just keep growing. On the planet earth, destroying what we live on till its dead...how fucked up is that! WE ARE NO BETTER THEN THE BACTERIA THAT MAKES US SICK!!!!!
im done. good night
Me and the guy I work with had an interesting conversation today. It was very humorous. We somehow got onto the subject about how we got here. He brought up how at one point we were sperm fighting other sperm to get to the egg to be alive. It hit us then that at one point we were fighting hundreds, (maybe thousands I am not really sure how it works) to get to the point to live! Basically, we were all sperm at one time fighting other sperm to get to the egg to become human! AND we won. HA! So really, we are all winners, we were all winners before we were even born! trippy, I know....
So, all day I have been wondering why I won. Why did I win against the rest to that egg? I was obviously stronger and faster when I was smaller then the human eye could even see. Why do I now feel like that now, after I have grown and learned so much? Maybe I have not learned as much as I thought. What does that have to do with being alive though? Is there a purpose for me? People die everyday. Friends, family, neighbors, strangers. Sometimes for good reason, a lot for no good reason at all, just unexpectedly...what the fuck is with that? Are we just disgusting creatures that keep breeding for no good reason at all? It's like we are bacteria. We just keep growing. On the planet earth, destroying what we live on till its dead...how fucked up is that! WE ARE NO BETTER THEN THE BACTERIA THAT MAKES US SICK!!!!!
im done. good night