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Maybe I enjoy misery.
Ever think of that?
Fuck off.
Pop bottles.
Im your filter, just something for your icky shit to catch onto to make your life cleaner.
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Being positive is just another way to set yourself up for a let down. So, I became a realist. Just started taking it as it is and not let any of the bull shit bring me down. I know what is real, who is who, and have felt more then you ever will in your life, only because you are blessed and I was damned. Why leave what has made me? Im use to this pattern, I have yet to shatter. If I leave I might get hurt, I can not let that happen again. God made it so that I fix those around me even if that means I have to live in misery. I can not leave those who held me up for so many years just because they got caught up in fear. I work a minimum wage job, make enough to have a few beers on a Saturday night and to stay alive for people to run to when nothing else is going right. If I leave who will they have to blame? I can't let someone else take that responsibility. Raised to not break, strong to move on. Do not lecture me what I should and shouldn't do. If I end up homeless let it be, it was Gods intention. You have never had a feeling this strong, and Im telling you Im not meant to make you happy. Just turn your head and go on with living your life. Do not feel sorry, do not be mad and believe I can become something greater. I learned to accept, to feel, to love, and to not fear death. When I want to leave, instead of taking off I fall asleep and dream. Feels so real why pay the price to get what's free? Did you know we dream in 5's? I swear I only dream in 4's, the 5th is when I wake. fuck this noise
Ever think of that?
Fuck off.
Pop bottles.
Im your filter, just something for your icky shit to catch onto to make your life cleaner.
............
Being positive is just another way to set yourself up for a let down. So, I became a realist. Just started taking it as it is and not let any of the bull shit bring me down. I know what is real, who is who, and have felt more then you ever will in your life, only because you are blessed and I was damned. Why leave what has made me? Im use to this pattern, I have yet to shatter. If I leave I might get hurt, I can not let that happen again. God made it so that I fix those around me even if that means I have to live in misery. I can not leave those who held me up for so many years just because they got caught up in fear. I work a minimum wage job, make enough to have a few beers on a Saturday night and to stay alive for people to run to when nothing else is going right. If I leave who will they have to blame? I can't let someone else take that responsibility. Raised to not break, strong to move on. Do not lecture me what I should and shouldn't do. If I end up homeless let it be, it was Gods intention. You have never had a feeling this strong, and Im telling you Im not meant to make you happy. Just turn your head and go on with living your life. Do not feel sorry, do not be mad and believe I can become something greater. I learned to accept, to feel, to love, and to not fear death. When I want to leave, instead of taking off I fall asleep and dream. Feels so real why pay the price to get what's free? Did you know we dream in 5's? I swear I only dream in 4's, the 5th is when I wake. fuck this noise