fade into pretend
I told him I was getting an anchor with a heart stabbed through it.
He laughed through the phone, I felt his smile.
He asked "why what for?"
I told him just because I want it.
He asked "for no reason at all, an anchor with a heart through it?"
I told him "yeah"
I knew he thought it had something to do with him, just because he thinks he is a pirate and hurt me when he broke up with me. I found it funny how much of an asshole he was, I loved it.
Later on I got a text from him.
"Is that tattoo because of me?"
"does it matter?"
"is it?"
"maybe, it has to do with a lot of things"
"Like what"
"Dont worry"
"Tell me"
"Why do you want to know so badly"
"I do"
"Fine. When me and you met again you honestly made me feel so much better, You helped me without even realizing it. After you broke up with me I was going through a really tough time, not just because of you but bc everything I was dealing with. I felt as though there was a weight hanging from my heart. I felt like every time I became close with someone that I anchored my heart for them and they ended up walking away from me, my heart felt stabbed. So that is the meaning behind the anchor with the heart being stabbed through it. When I saw it I thought of you first, I anchored my heart for you, there are other people too."
ten min later.
"Awwwww katie! Its so cute Im part of your tattoo. I wish I had one for you."
20 mins later I texted back saying I was tired and going to bed and goodnight. Um douchbag?
"Goodnight doll"
About ten mins went by and I just had to say it.
"You could of told me you about her, you did not have to leave me like that with nothing to say to me ever again"
"what?"
"I know you have a girlfriend, I hope she is good for you, really you deserve the best and I wish you saw that."
No reply since.
That was 2 nights ago.
Just get me to california already.
He laughed through the phone, I felt his smile.
He asked "why what for?"
I told him just because I want it.
He asked "for no reason at all, an anchor with a heart through it?"
I told him "yeah"
I knew he thought it had something to do with him, just because he thinks he is a pirate and hurt me when he broke up with me. I found it funny how much of an asshole he was, I loved it.
Later on I got a text from him.
"Is that tattoo because of me?"
"does it matter?"
"is it?"
"maybe, it has to do with a lot of things"
"Like what"
"Dont worry"
"Tell me"
"Why do you want to know so badly"
"I do"
"Fine. When me and you met again you honestly made me feel so much better, You helped me without even realizing it. After you broke up with me I was going through a really tough time, not just because of you but bc everything I was dealing with. I felt as though there was a weight hanging from my heart. I felt like every time I became close with someone that I anchored my heart for them and they ended up walking away from me, my heart felt stabbed. So that is the meaning behind the anchor with the heart being stabbed through it. When I saw it I thought of you first, I anchored my heart for you, there are other people too."
ten min later.
"Awwwww katie! Its so cute Im part of your tattoo. I wish I had one for you."
20 mins later I texted back saying I was tired and going to bed and goodnight. Um douchbag?
"Goodnight doll"
About ten mins went by and I just had to say it.
"You could of told me you about her, you did not have to leave me like that with nothing to say to me ever again"
"what?"
"I know you have a girlfriend, I hope she is good for you, really you deserve the best and I wish you saw that."
No reply since.
That was 2 nights ago.
Just get me to california already.