thoughts
I've read two 400-500 page books within the past 5 days. Im now on the third, its a saga; it ends with the fourth book :-( They are by Stephenie Meyer and they are about vampires, love, werewolves, choices in life; you probably find that to be corny but Im quite intrigued surprisingly.
Other then that my life consist of the deli I work at and Matt. Life seems so still at the moment, it's like I'm not moving, same routine all the time. Besides when Holly popped up at Matt's twice this week, that was nice, I enjoyed talking, hearing her worries and having her hear mine. Having a friend was nice.
I do not judge my friends, I care about them and along with that comes worrying. I've heard repeatedly so many times from too many that they are better, that they are doing it right this time, blah blah blah, and every single time I am hoping so hard that it is true and right when it seems that it is something happens to mess it all up. I don't know what you think but I am here for you all and I don't even ask for you to do the same, all I ask is that you keep in touch once in a while to let me know how things are going. I do not mean call every two months but once a week or so would be nice, especially towards someone who has been through so much with you, that knows so much about you, that has proved their loyalty as a friend to you. A simple "Hey what's up, how are things?" are polite to do, but only polite if you even really do care.
Time passes, life changes but memories are forever, feelings even more so. That doesn't mean we have to bury a friend in the back of our minds because a few months have gone by without hanging out. It doesn't mean we can't invite one another to each other's weddings, birthday fiascos, theme parties, a get together on the weekend, or to just go for a ride to 711 to get a pack of smokes and or slurpie.
Road trip to Vermont in December with Matt and his friends who I'm sure I can call my friends too by now, right? I just hope someday soon, and that means within the next 2 or 3 years, that I can do something like that with my friends, but that idea is absurd right now because most of them do not get along anymore. Hopefully by then...
Other then that my life consist of the deli I work at and Matt. Life seems so still at the moment, it's like I'm not moving, same routine all the time. Besides when Holly popped up at Matt's twice this week, that was nice, I enjoyed talking, hearing her worries and having her hear mine. Having a friend was nice.
I do not judge my friends, I care about them and along with that comes worrying. I've heard repeatedly so many times from too many that they are better, that they are doing it right this time, blah blah blah, and every single time I am hoping so hard that it is true and right when it seems that it is something happens to mess it all up. I don't know what you think but I am here for you all and I don't even ask for you to do the same, all I ask is that you keep in touch once in a while to let me know how things are going. I do not mean call every two months but once a week or so would be nice, especially towards someone who has been through so much with you, that knows so much about you, that has proved their loyalty as a friend to you. A simple "Hey what's up, how are things?" are polite to do, but only polite if you even really do care.
Time passes, life changes but memories are forever, feelings even more so. That doesn't mean we have to bury a friend in the back of our minds because a few months have gone by without hanging out. It doesn't mean we can't invite one another to each other's weddings, birthday fiascos, theme parties, a get together on the weekend, or to just go for a ride to 711 to get a pack of smokes and or slurpie.
Road trip to Vermont in December with Matt and his friends who I'm sure I can call my friends too by now, right? I just hope someday soon, and that means within the next 2 or 3 years, that I can do something like that with my friends, but that idea is absurd right now because most of them do not get along anymore. Hopefully by then...