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[no_hazy_eyes_]

i feel like a liar and a hypocrite.
but then again i suppose everyone is.
everything was going just as planned.
but once again i did something to mix it all up.
however, im not sure i regret it.
but i do regret the consequences
and the pain i caused.
then again it has caused me to re-examine
my life, choices, relationships, especially
my relationship with God. 
I hope good will come out of it and
that i can have the wisdom and
sense to let God guide me.

I just want to be happy along with the ones I love.
But how can I make them all happy?
I suppose I'll have to settle for what's best for us all.
too bad im not sure what that is yet.