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[no_girl_sosweet]

so, today when pretty bad, we were at school and I was in a good mood but then during the break these annoying stupid populair "I think I'm so cool" guys were being the most stupid you can ever imagine, ruind my day. there were 2, my classmated they know them, so these 2 idiots, micheal and klaas, walked to our table and were acting all nice and stuff but you could see they were makeing fun of us, I hate that those are the worst ones, so I told them to fuck off, but ofcourse they didn't, thinking they were so cool, makeing me all mad couse I'm someone who can't controle myslef if someone does those sort of things, I don't know why, my friends kept telling me to don't pay attention (how can you to that!?) they pissed me off badly, and my classmates were just laughing (later they said the weren't laughing at me, yeah right)and I just knew the were lying, and I said something like; you were. they got all pissed couse I said that, like; if that's the way you think about it. bitches. I was so mad that day, unbelieveble, begin of the day I was happy, 2 hours later I was crying alone at Maths makeing some sort of drawing with a lot of lyrics on it, writen with different pens so I could write over the other thing I wrote, it turned out very freaked and fucked-up. my tutor asked me if I wanted to talk, that's the last thing I wanted to do, doesn't she get that. first thing I did after the most horrible break ever was listening to the boatmens call; people just ain't no good. I was like; Nick Cave is right, listen to him and not to the tutor who's excplaining Maths, she doesn't know how it's like. later I tried to excplain to my classmates but ofcourse they didn't understand; small minded people who don't care about anything and do things without even thinking. later in Dutch (wich was about 4 hours later) I was okay, we watched a film cause it's the last week. Ice Age, it was sort of funny at times. I kept looking at the teacher Dutch, Miss. Zeeman, she's very interesting and nice. I think she thinks I'm obsessed with her now cause I was starring 60 % of the time. (I'm a freak, I know)

and I need to say sorry less often, I allways say it like at the end of every sentence. it needs to stop. but before I'm going to do that, I want to say sorry to all the people who listen to my self pity conversations, writings. it's all in this journal.

whining, whining, wining, wining, self pity, whining, whining, self pity, tori amos, happy, whining, self pity. this is my journal, it's true.

god how I hate populair people, the means ones that is, (yes nice ones do exist)

stop whining Joy!!!!
okay I'll try.