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ehargh..
im so hungover.
im stupid. ive been drinking every single dayyy.
Im stressed out.
I broke up with Bobby about a week ago and hes all freaking out because he just came back from a wedding in FL and now is claiming that it made him open his eyes. Hes saying it made him think and now he knows for sure that he wants me to be his wife, the mother of his children and all that hibbity jibbity. I told him its a bit late. That hes said those kind of things to me before and never really seemed to stick by them. Every time I threaten him with a split up, he convinces me that he'll be that "better guy" and will treat me better.
And now since Ive been sticking to my decision, I think hes actually changing. I dont know. It hasnt been that long.. and I have that very strong feeling that if I take him back, he'll definately do what he always does.
Went to a lame fucking art show last nightaround 7. Bobbys stuff was the best stuff in there of course. He made about 95 dollars which is good. Scene kids eat that shit up. I was drunk the whole time though. I actually started drinking around 1ish I think. And it was fucking hot as hell.
We went to the Icehouse afterwards.. I got even more drunk.. and so did Courtney. We decided to leave after Courtney ended up crying in the bathroom while I was puking in there.
-sigh-
So much on my mind lately. Im having trouble figuring out what Im going to do about my jobs.
Currently Im still working at Save A Lot and Im supposed to be working maybe two days out of the week for the lady downstairs making 10 an hour.. cleaning houses around the Isle. And I actually just stopped going to Red and White.. and when I went to pick up my last paychecks they asked me to come back... EVEN after me not showing up and such. They said that I was a great worker and they liked me so they want me back. I could even choose if I want to work a day or two days or three.. anything.
Blah I dont know.
I just want to relax for once.
you know.. enjoy the island life while Im here.
im so hungover.
im stupid. ive been drinking every single dayyy.
Im stressed out.
I broke up with Bobby about a week ago and hes all freaking out because he just came back from a wedding in FL and now is claiming that it made him open his eyes. Hes saying it made him think and now he knows for sure that he wants me to be his wife, the mother of his children and all that hibbity jibbity. I told him its a bit late. That hes said those kind of things to me before and never really seemed to stick by them. Every time I threaten him with a split up, he convinces me that he'll be that "better guy" and will treat me better.
And now since Ive been sticking to my decision, I think hes actually changing. I dont know. It hasnt been that long.. and I have that very strong feeling that if I take him back, he'll definately do what he always does.
Went to a lame fucking art show last nightaround 7. Bobbys stuff was the best stuff in there of course. He made about 95 dollars which is good. Scene kids eat that shit up. I was drunk the whole time though. I actually started drinking around 1ish I think. And it was fucking hot as hell.
We went to the Icehouse afterwards.. I got even more drunk.. and so did Courtney. We decided to leave after Courtney ended up crying in the bathroom while I was puking in there.
-sigh-
So much on my mind lately. Im having trouble figuring out what Im going to do about my jobs.
Currently Im still working at Save A Lot and Im supposed to be working maybe two days out of the week for the lady downstairs making 10 an hour.. cleaning houses around the Isle. And I actually just stopped going to Red and White.. and when I went to pick up my last paychecks they asked me to come back... EVEN after me not showing up and such. They said that I was a great worker and they liked me so they want me back. I could even choose if I want to work a day or two days or three.. anything.
Blah I dont know.
I just want to relax for once.
you know.. enjoy the island life while Im here.