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well this past week was quite interesting... im back together with ei... (probably my most favorite part) but i dont think its been going very well... mainly because i havent been able to spend a lot fo time with her and i havent been talking to her much.... which is kind of bumming me out and i guess that has led to us kinda fighting a little bit and me getting kinda weird... but i think things will get better.... i just gotta keep praying and i have to make more time for her
my birthday party was a ton of fun had like 30 something people at my house... IT DIDNT RAIN which was awesome because it was in the forecast, and i think everyone who came had a banging time....
spent a lot of time with my sister/cousin/non-relative (its weird) this weekend and shes been going through kind of a rought time... so it was nice to be there for her... and talk to her a bit
sundayyy sleas came over and chilled with me and molli.... and then me and him went to church... becca (one of my bestest friends ever) was suppose to come over but she couldnt find a ride (or so i thought) so sleas and i invited molli to dinner... and when i came home to pick me up she was like "come downstairs macken"..... so i came downstairs and sat down and out of my laundry room pops out becca jones... it was cool... i was glad to see her because her and i like NEVER get the chance to hang out.... then we all went to friendly's with soem of my friends from St Ambrose (a different catholic church) and we had a crazy time... threwww wayyy too much food, i spilled my water all over my pants, got ice cream all over my shirt thanks to becca, and got whipped cream in my hair.... spit balls to the face... yeah it was a gangster time....
and then sleas mol and bec slept over and it was a lot of funnnn and the next morning we at b-fasttt which my momma cooked [ yummmyyy ] and pklayed kareoke for like three hours... it was a good time =)
so that was the weekend i guess...
lately ive been really confused and upset about what God has been trying to tell me in my life... and if you're not religious you probably wont care.... so i wouldnt bother reading this.... but, lately i've been feeling that God has been calling me to give something up... and when ei and i broke up the first time... i kind of thought that it was it... he wanted me to give up fighting temptation and making out and all that stuff... but that wasnt it... being with ei this time.... is showing me that we dont have to be a couple and make-out and do all kinds of gross things or be all touchy feely whatever.... no one does.... what kind of happiness does it give you anyway... yeah sure it feels good for a little while... your hormones may get to you all crazy... you start feeling all passionate and stuff... but isnt it better to have eternal happiness than having momentary happiness and risking your chances of gettin into a higher place...
honestly for people who dont know God or who dont have a faith... where is all that stuff going to get you... think about this... we're teenagers right now so all that stuff is cool and hip and whatever... but 10 -15 -20 years down the road when you find that special someone.... are you gonna wanna know that they were like with 15 different people sexually in their lifetime... arent you gonna wanna have that one special moment when you get married where you can share that special bond... and arent you gonna wanna know that the both of you have never had that bond with anyone else... seriously... lots of people dont realize how much they are going to regret the things they do in their earlier years,,, and it would be wise if you thought about this and if you tried to help the people around you ... so they dont make the mistakes as well...
but anyway.. back to ei and i... ive realized that God just wants me to focus more on him.... and forget about a lot of the scular stuff around the world..for you people who know God or have religion... stand up for it... talk to people about it... stop being afraid of being different... so what if people dont like what you say... they dont have to... and you dont have to like what they say... but remember you are never alone... so im telling all you people who are embarassed or ashamed to do the right thing... dont just to the right thing... do more than the right thing.... get out there and make a difference... show people why this world can be a good place and start standing up for what you believe and why you believe in it...
hmmm being a senior sure makes me feel old...
i love ei thé phyu (this was originallly what i was going to put in my journal entry.. oops)
my birthday party was a ton of fun had like 30 something people at my house... IT DIDNT RAIN which was awesome because it was in the forecast, and i think everyone who came had a banging time....
spent a lot of time with my sister/cousin/non-relative (its weird) this weekend and shes been going through kind of a rought time... so it was nice to be there for her... and talk to her a bit
sundayyy sleas came over and chilled with me and molli.... and then me and him went to church... becca (one of my bestest friends ever) was suppose to come over but she couldnt find a ride (or so i thought) so sleas and i invited molli to dinner... and when i came home to pick me up she was like "come downstairs macken"..... so i came downstairs and sat down and out of my laundry room pops out becca jones... it was cool... i was glad to see her because her and i like NEVER get the chance to hang out.... then we all went to friendly's with soem of my friends from St Ambrose (a different catholic church) and we had a crazy time... threwww wayyy too much food, i spilled my water all over my pants, got ice cream all over my shirt thanks to becca, and got whipped cream in my hair.... spit balls to the face... yeah it was a gangster time....
and then sleas mol and bec slept over and it was a lot of funnnn and the next morning we at b-fasttt which my momma cooked [ yummmyyy ] and pklayed kareoke for like three hours... it was a good time =)
so that was the weekend i guess...
lately ive been really confused and upset about what God has been trying to tell me in my life... and if you're not religious you probably wont care.... so i wouldnt bother reading this.... but, lately i've been feeling that God has been calling me to give something up... and when ei and i broke up the first time... i kind of thought that it was it... he wanted me to give up fighting temptation and making out and all that stuff... but that wasnt it... being with ei this time.... is showing me that we dont have to be a couple and make-out and do all kinds of gross things or be all touchy feely whatever.... no one does.... what kind of happiness does it give you anyway... yeah sure it feels good for a little while... your hormones may get to you all crazy... you start feeling all passionate and stuff... but isnt it better to have eternal happiness than having momentary happiness and risking your chances of gettin into a higher place...
honestly for people who dont know God or who dont have a faith... where is all that stuff going to get you... think about this... we're teenagers right now so all that stuff is cool and hip and whatever... but 10 -15 -20 years down the road when you find that special someone.... are you gonna wanna know that they were like with 15 different people sexually in their lifetime... arent you gonna wanna have that one special moment when you get married where you can share that special bond... and arent you gonna wanna know that the both of you have never had that bond with anyone else... seriously... lots of people dont realize how much they are going to regret the things they do in their earlier years,,, and it would be wise if you thought about this and if you tried to help the people around you ... so they dont make the mistakes as well...
but anyway.. back to ei and i... ive realized that God just wants me to focus more on him.... and forget about a lot of the scular stuff around the world..for you people who know God or have religion... stand up for it... talk to people about it... stop being afraid of being different... so what if people dont like what you say... they dont have to... and you dont have to like what they say... but remember you are never alone... so im telling all you people who are embarassed or ashamed to do the right thing... dont just to the right thing... do more than the right thing.... get out there and make a difference... show people why this world can be a good place and start standing up for what you believe and why you believe in it...
hmmm being a senior sure makes me feel old...
i love ei thé phyu (this was originallly what i was going to put in my journal entry.. oops)