..she whispers "how could you do this to me"..
Hi. I'm updating just because i'm in those moods that I love so much.
I'm at a stress level where i'm getting sick from it now, like literally getting sick. This gets no fun after a while, not at all. This week I have so much homework piled up and due for Monday, maybe i'll start it tomorrow? I'm going to warn whomever is reading this, i'm going to be jumping subjects a lot.
I really have no clue who reads this, besides by my link, my mom could be reading this right now, she has before, how wonderful. A journal is a book, or online page that someone can basically spill there heart out to. I don't care if friends read this, because I keep it at a level where I'm not announcing my whole life style, well only when i'm insanely bored. But, think about it, what would your mom say if you had a journal and she read it. I know mine got a little bit pissed and started putting it against me.
Tonight I started my job at KB Toys. It's okay for the most part, it wasn't as great as I was hoping though. It really bothers me whenever everyone, not just a few, everyone is older than you. Besides that, whenever everyone basically treats you like shit and acts like they don't like you. I need to keep this job though, I cannot quit. Unless, my dad tells me to because of my grades, but I cannot quit this job. I need the money to be able to spend on my own things.
School is school, i'm really hoping I can have my grades up by next Friday. I need it, desperately. Even though, I am starting to bring some of the grades up so far.
Why is it, when you try liking someone again, or you still want to like someone but yet you're not with them anymore, and they act like they like you, in the end it's just a hoax and they say the exact opposite of what they had said before. I swear, not a single one of my relationships can ever just be, good. Believe it or not, I was actually getting a little bit happier this week, suprisingly. Now tonight, it sunk to the ground again. This has been ever since I started dating, and nothing will change it seems. Will there just be ONE person, who will care, who will have a heart? No, this is not going to anyone in particular so before anything starts i'm setting that straight. It seems as though, whenever people have problems, i'm willing to listen, whenever/wherever. Yet, when it comes to me having a problem, it gets to be brushed off. Once again, this isn't going out to anyone in particular because I have some amazing friends that do actually stay by my side and listen to me complain and cry. Just tonight, I just really needed someone to talk to and either someones phone's off, everyone's out, or they just aren't being serious about it at all. I get so upset about things anymore, people don't even want to listen half the time. I guess i'm living day by day, night by night, and hopefully trying to figure everything out.
Myspace, is getting on my nerves. I'd like for a certain person, when he reads this, to read it well, you will know who you are once I come into detail. Everyone knows about myspace, even if you don't have one, you have your top 4, top 8, top 12, top I have more friends on my top then I do in my list. Anyways. You usually put your best friends, favorite bands, or family in your top. BUT, even though you put your best friends or friends in that case on that list, it does NOT mean you hang out with them. I love how one person tries to bitch about me having someone on my top 8, and saying I hang out with them, but yet, I haven't hung out with him in my life. Another example, I have my cousin on there, sure she's family but yet, I don't see her all the time. It's immature bullshit like that, that sets me off anymore.
I'm glad I have this journal, it's helping me with getting everything out actually.
I can most likely put bets down, most people did not read until here. If you did, I probably love you haha.
Highlight of my week: I got thee best Spongebob Squarepants pajama pants last night.
I just really wish right now, guys would understand girls a little bit better. Somedays, it feels as if some are basically just treating girls as if they were nobody. Each and every person should be treated the way they'd like to be treated. Although, that can sometimes become a hazordous site, it could help in the end.
I'm done blabbering for tonight since i'm getting tired ): night.