Jun 18, 2004 21:02
my friend isn't going to the summer ball because she can't find a dress. i tried to convince her that a nice top and trousers would be fine, but what is with balls and proms.. it feels necessary to wear some god awful ballgown, which pinches and squeezes and makes you look like a bell..
so now she won't be going. and this whole, "dress search" has pulled her right down. she feels overweight, unattractive and unwanted. she can't understand that she is beautiful. she's not a stick.. but, to be perfectly honest, since when was that ever so great? she's a beautiful, loved, popular and funny young woman, and due to this whole thing, and the oh-so-bad influence of those around her she spent all of yesterday crying about the way she looks.
i hate society.
and i hate having to be positive all the time. yeh, i want to help.. but i'm getting really tired, i sound like i'm on auto-pilot.. "no, you're not fat. you look really nice" yada yada. it's all becoming kind of meaningless.