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[no1hasthissn]

you annoy me. I've spent my entire college time, trying to be your bestfriend, look out for you, take care of you, and give you advice. I never expect you to take my advice and that's ok, everyone needs to learn from their mistakes. Lately I feel like you care for no one but yourself, and I let you be that way because I understand that you have

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[sorrento12]

dear renee,

i hope you are feeling better. it seems like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders and that is a tough position to be in. but i think you have the right idea in that you can't possibly make everyone happy so just focus your efforts on a few people if u want to. you'll probably not hear the silent thank you's from your friends, but i am sure they appreciate you being there. i wish i could be there for you, now. it's tough to keep going not knowing if you have anyone you can talk to, but i hope you feel comfortable enough to talk to me. i probably haven't changed much over the years.. really just the same old me. hehe. i know we've grown apart in many ways but i still care for my friends and you're one of them =) so i hope that you feel better and i totally agree with you about the car.

it wouldn't be financially sound for you to purchase a car now without knowing if you have a permanent job to back it up. insurance is a lot of money, too, like you surmised. so i say go with your gut instinct and that is probably the best decision.

as for the friends that are drowning in their own misery, i know what you mean. and i think you've been doing the right thing all along. the best thing we can do is to offer our support to these friends and hope that they will eventually realize that the hardest part about change is making the first step. you're right. you can't live someone else's life for them, but the best thing we can do is to help guide them along the way. it's too bad that your kindness goes unanswered by your friend, but at the very least you can say that you have helped them to be a better person.

anyway, congrats with hanging tough through senior year! :) we're all proud of your accomplishments and know that you will make us all ever more proud in the future. props for sticking with the family. i have a hard time handling my family, too, but like you said, family is family. blood is thicker than water and we've all got to do our part to make the family work..

well that's enough out of me for one day. hehe. hope you feel better and maybe my words will agree with you to some extent. hang in there and i wish you all the best, renee! :D

love ya,
on

[no1hasthissn]

Thanks so much On, we should really see each other this summer. That'd be really nice. Now that I'll be done with school shortly it's all downhill/uphill from here on out. Thanks for always reading my LJ!

miss you!