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Well i guess im back agian and boy do i have lots of thaughts and so much crap going on i dont know how to feel or what to feel. but thats life and its mysterious ways. well lets update on whats basically going on my life for thoese who care or are intristed doesnt really matter. Either way its happening, well I had a big move at work different location sucks and the work conditions are crap they can probably get in trouble for that shit and from what i heard certain things there dont meet the qualifications for my line of work but I wont say what cause i dont want them to get in trouble and lose my job as well. lately all I do is work and hardly spend time with my friends but when i do I cherish everyminute being with them cause you never know when youll last see them, especially with my case -_-. Im trying to save up for my car typical teenager stuff but at this rate it wont get far.The Family is sure starting to spread and its starting to spread apart too. Im at the point of losing my house do to payments not being paid for 2 months, wont point any fingers, lately ive been giving up more then half my paycheck just to help for the house so it can help but what i get paid with is not enough as usual. So we have two options either our house gets taken away by the bank or government, Second we sell our house pay our debts and use the money to buy a house up state in kentucky. Now this is where it begins to get tricky this new house is going to be my grandmas house and my mnom wants to move up there two cause i have a older brother in the army with his family who live in kentucky. Any how my grand doesnt want my moms boy friend in this new house so they both plan on moving there but in seperate houses or my mom might actually go to california. I have to choose who to move with but theres more or i have the option of staying here in miami but on a certain condition. It would be under the roof of my best friend davids house, thats if its cool with his parents which i wouldnt find it to be a problem as long as i pay rent, that and i only live liek a block away =P.But if i do stay here I have no family else who lives here other then my twin (more complications).Hes having a kid good news but also can be bad hes no so ready for this kid but hes taking the step of taking care of it with his girlfrend together. But hes planing on going to the airforce which is alos another major step So hes heading towards another direction also which is a bummer =/ hes my twin. We started bonding more liek twins should have ever since my dad left the house and moved to texas. I might also have the option of moving to texas too with my dad but doubt it , I havent really talked to him about it and the fact that he lives in an apartment with only two bedrooms means no privacy whatso ever and not much of a life of my own. And if you thnk thats just it its not. With all this stress and unhappyness comes the feeling to be loved -_-. Ive been single for a very long time and want to start a relationship im tired of just working and thats it. And for college i dont know what to do cause i dont know where i will be and with constant moving wont help at all . Im tired of being lonely I cant go out and find someone cause i have no car and if I do I dont have any idea where to go cause im not much of a talker with new people but im working on it. And no offense to people who live here in miami But its hard to find a decent girl around here, and thats all i have to say. Im so confused and dont really have anyone around to talk to which brings me here to write on this journal -_- (who reads this idk )