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in a cartoon house, with a cartoon car. There's cities buried underneath our city.
I don't understand what I'm feeling, other than I know it's despair.
I don't have the false hope that I should have, I don't feel like we're going to be together forever, because I know we won't.
Because she won't. I look at how beautiful she is, and she just doesn't seem to know that she's too good for me, and I'm useless. I've wasted my entire life and all I want to do now is die. That's all I want.
I'm sick of this place, I'm sick of war in Iraq, I'm sick of fighting my daily battles with shitting, I'm sick of my family.
The only thing I'm not sick of, is her touch, and the way her lips feel against my skin.
When I die, I'll be brought to heaven's gates. I will look the man upon the throne in the face and utter 'I denied you on Earth and I will deny you in Heaven.'
I will be cast into hell with my people. The thinkers, and those that actually felt.
There is no God, or divine being. Look at what we're living in, there cannot be.
If there is, he's forgotten this.
I'm sleeping with this URL beside my bed tonight. So, If I'm to die, You'll all be able to read this.
Mother, You're the only person I would have ever died for.
Jenna has become another person I'd die for.
Jenna, I love you so much. There's so much unsaid. You can't even understand what you mean to me, and I don't expect you to. You don't know how worried I am that with each passing day, I'm coming closer to the one that I lose you.
If I die tonight, I want you to know that in life, I loved you more than anything else.
In fact, I'm calling you right now.
I love you so much.
I'm sorry.
I'm done with this.
I don't understand what I'm feeling, other than I know it's despair.
I don't have the false hope that I should have, I don't feel like we're going to be together forever, because I know we won't.
Because she won't. I look at how beautiful she is, and she just doesn't seem to know that she's too good for me, and I'm useless. I've wasted my entire life and all I want to do now is die. That's all I want.
I'm sick of this place, I'm sick of war in Iraq, I'm sick of fighting my daily battles with shitting, I'm sick of my family.
The only thing I'm not sick of, is her touch, and the way her lips feel against my skin.
When I die, I'll be brought to heaven's gates. I will look the man upon the throne in the face and utter 'I denied you on Earth and I will deny you in Heaven.'
I will be cast into hell with my people. The thinkers, and those that actually felt.
There is no God, or divine being. Look at what we're living in, there cannot be.
If there is, he's forgotten this.
I'm sleeping with this URL beside my bed tonight. So, If I'm to die, You'll all be able to read this.
Mother, You're the only person I would have ever died for.
Jenna has become another person I'd die for.
Jenna, I love you so much. There's so much unsaid. You can't even understand what you mean to me, and I don't expect you to. You don't know how worried I am that with each passing day, I'm coming closer to the one that I lose you.
If I die tonight, I want you to know that in life, I loved you more than anything else.
In fact, I'm calling you right now.
I love you so much.
I'm sorry.
I'm done with this.