i just dont care any more
sitting here smoking a cigarette thinking to myself....more or less contemplating whether or not i wish to be deceased i dont know what to do with myself... one half says itll get better the other half says die now... voice in head says it will be painless... so im not sure and honestly im at the point where i dont care if i live or die... very dark place to be when you have nothign to look foward to...