Worst Day Ever
Yesterday was seriously the worst day of my life. Surgery was Wednesday and I made it through okay mass was 2x as big as they expected now my throat hurt and neck is stiff and sore the Anes made me super super nauseous and made me cry apparently though I do not remember crying I remember trying not the puke a though. Came home the next day after keeping eggs down fine fine fine.
Then yesterday Friday is the day I am waiting for pathology results waiting and waiting watching nurse jackie with mom no problem. R goes outside to cook brats on the grill and comes in yelling for mom...I follow cause R has some panic on his voice and everyone was trying to keep me from going out. So of course I went out. Zoe was laying there she couldn't move and was struggling to breathe...
I ended up taking her to an emergency vet to find out the mass in her abdomen had ruptured and she was bleeding out internally. I had to have her put down. And while the vet is in the room ready to put her down and we are all crying I get the call from my surgeon.
I have cancer
And it apparently bad because while I had been told before I would be taken back into surgery to take the left side if it was bad the doc told me last night he is presenting my case to the tumor board to find the best course of action...(This means he will talk about my cancer with a panel of doctors who will discuss it in length to determine the best way to treat me.)
I told the surgeon I was crying because we were putting my dog down and he got quiet and said he was so sorry he just had to put one of his dogs down last week. but now I don't know what is going on. I will call Monday to see if I can get more info because most of what he told me I couldn't process on the phone I was so upset. Anyway I hung up and we put Zoe down it was fast and painless and I was there the whole time telling her what a good girl she was, My house feels empty without her.....I am not worried about myself i am going to be fine though it feels weird to know I have cancer. I am just sooo upset about Zoe it was so fast and sudden and I was not prepared to loose her not that I would have ever been ready.
Me and my baby Girl I am gonna miss her soooo much
Then yesterday Friday is the day I am waiting for pathology results waiting and waiting watching nurse jackie with mom no problem. R goes outside to cook brats on the grill and comes in yelling for mom...I follow cause R has some panic on his voice and everyone was trying to keep me from going out. So of course I went out. Zoe was laying there she couldn't move and was struggling to breathe...
I ended up taking her to an emergency vet to find out the mass in her abdomen had ruptured and she was bleeding out internally. I had to have her put down. And while the vet is in the room ready to put her down and we are all crying I get the call from my surgeon.
I have cancer
And it apparently bad because while I had been told before I would be taken back into surgery to take the left side if it was bad the doc told me last night he is presenting my case to the tumor board to find the best course of action...(This means he will talk about my cancer with a panel of doctors who will discuss it in length to determine the best way to treat me.)
I told the surgeon I was crying because we were putting my dog down and he got quiet and said he was so sorry he just had to put one of his dogs down last week. but now I don't know what is going on. I will call Monday to see if I can get more info because most of what he told me I couldn't process on the phone I was so upset. Anyway I hung up and we put Zoe down it was fast and painless and I was there the whole time telling her what a good girl she was, My house feels empty without her.....I am not worried about myself i am going to be fine though it feels weird to know I have cancer. I am just sooo upset about Zoe it was so fast and sudden and I was not prepared to loose her not that I would have ever been ready.
Me and my baby Girl I am gonna miss her soooo much