Comfort by Night
I've had this idea in my head for a while, and since many people liked my last post, I figured why not?
Pairing: Hyde/ Gackt
Rating: K+
Summary: Gackt always goes to one person for comfort.
Warning: mentions of death
Disclaimer: all people belong to themselves
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After a long day at the recording studio, coming back to an empty house since Megumi had left for a while on a news report and their son was being spoiled by his grandparents; Hyde decided to skip his daily routines and just sleep til tomorrow. But before he could reach his bedroom a knock at the door stopped him short.
"Who the hell is it at this time of night?" opening his front door to a sight that took the small man by surprise. "Gackt?"
"H-Haido!" before he could voice his question, his guest had entered his house and held him in a tight embrace. Unconsciously Hyde felt his arms wrap themselves around the taller man's torso, unable to ignore the slight shiver that ran through Gackt's body when he moved just slightly.
"What's wrong Gacchan?" strong arms only tighten around him in response. Hyde knew something wrong was bothering his friend, this wasn't like Gackt to come and just hold him in the middle of the night at his house looking like he was about to break down.
"Gacchan, you have to let-"
"Don't!"
"Ga-"
"Please don't say it like that, Haido" hearing the tremor in Gackt's baritone voice, Hyde released his arms and pushed the door closed, letting Gackt hold him just a while longer before the taller man let go with an apology.
"It's fine, water?"
"Please" heading towards the couch in the familiar house, Gackt sat himself down as Hyde brought him a glass of cold water. Downing the drink in a few gulps Hyde simpy watched in concern.
"Gacchan-"
"Haido, how long are you planning to keep in the music business?"
"Eh?" caught off track by the odd question, the man gave a sigh and sat back in his large chair beside the couch, left of his friend. "I'll probably be with L'Arc~en~Ciel for about ten, fifteen more years or so before I'll retire"
"Why?"
"Why? Gacchan when was the last time you wanted to go to a sixty year old's rock concert?" looking at his friend with a grin on his face, Hyde expected a smile in response when all he got was a sigh and Gackt hiding his face in his hands Hyde got anxious.
"Why are you-"
"What happens when you retire Haido? what about your fans? and your friends?" dark brown eyes met with dark brown for the first time that night, and it was only then did Hyde realise Gackt wasn't wearing his contacts.
"Where does your name go? all those years of music will be gone! y-you will-"
"Gackt! calm down" raising his voice just slightly brought the younger man to his senses as he locked eyes with Hyde. "Why are you asking me about all this?"
"...I had a nightmare" sitting back in the chair, Hyde let a smile fall onto his face
"Is that all? Gacchan I thought something bad-"
"No, Haido I had a nightmare...about you" looking up from his clenched hands, Gackt could see confusion and disbelief written on his older friend's young looking face.
"What do you mean?" sitting up in his seat, Gackt ran his hands through his black hair and breathed into his large pale hands. He began his story.
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Gackt woke up to the sound of You tuning his violin as GacktJOB finished with their daily practice.
"Gakkun are you alright? you've been daydreaming for some time now" the voice of his good friend asked in concern, Gackt turned and smiled
"I'm fine You-chan, in fact I feel great! I wonder why that is?"
"Who knows, you have a good sleep?"
"I think so, but I don't think that's it" looking puzzled for a bit, the blue eyed man shook his head in feign submission when he said goodbye to his friends and left for the day. But before he exited the building Chachamaru's voice called him back
"Gackt, don't forget to head to the Tokyo Grand Hotel at seven tonight, all of the big shots in the music industry will be there, look sharp!"
"I will, thanks!" calling back, the tall soloist left the building and prepared for tonight.
Dressed in a black three piece suit and black tie with white patterns, Gackt made his way through the crowd smiling and talking well with the C.E.O's of rivaling companies as well as other artists and bands, when sometime into the night Gackt couldn't help but not see a face in the crowd.
A face he was expecting, above all else, to see that night.
Looking for another, Gackt asked "Excuse me, but do you know if Haido from L'Arc~en~Ciel is here?"
"Who?"
"...Haido from L'Arc~en~Ciel, weren't they invited?" the band of four had been in the music industry for near two decades, sold millions and were known throughout the world.....how could they not be here?!
"Ah L'Arc~en~Ciel? yes they're here"
"Really?! please tell me where" Gackt let go of the breath he didn't know he was holding, the sudden pain in his heart faded before-
"Over there, by the table" looking at the direction he was given, the soloist went over to the band only to have his breath taken once more. There sitting at the table were Tetsu the bassist, Ken the guitarist and Yukihiro the drummer; where was Hyde the vocalist?
"Tetsu-san? Hello, it's me Gackt" looking up at the younger man, weary eyes instantly placed a flim of cheerfulness over them. The leader stood up
"Gackt? ah yes, I remember how long ago was it since we last talked?"
"Years I'm sure, may I ask where Haido is tonight? I've looked for him but I can't-"
"Don't bother looking" Ken spoke up, drinking in his cigarette as Yukihiro turned and downed his drink. Tetsu sat back down, the weariness in his eyes returned- along with an air of bitter sadness.
"Why? where is he?" the pain in his chest returned, as the blood in his body ran a thousand fold.....
"Haido is dead."
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"I- died?" looking at the younger man now trying to hide his face, Hyde knew any longer and Gackt would be broken.
"I looked for your grave, when I found it....I fell and I wept Haido. I- when I woke up I couldn't stop thinking about my nightmare, I had to come here and see that you were really alive still- I was so afraid..." Hyde got up from his chair and sat beside his friend, placing a hand over his broad shoulders, Hyde let Gackt lean on him as he cried.
"It's okay Gacchan, I'm not afraid of death it happens to everyone"
"No, not you Haido-..when we die we're suppose to be remembered! our music is suppose to be played over and over again, but- in my nightmare...no one remembered you"
"My band did..."
"No! that's not the point!" standing up the tall man broke from the older man's embrace and walked off showing his back.
"Then what is Gackt? tell me" he didn't get this. Hyde was touched that Gackt would care so muh for him enough to drive so late at night just to see him but what Gackt was saying didn't make sense
"...when you died, I felt a part of me die with you, I felt my soul break- nothing has ever made me felt that way, the way that nightmare made me feel was so real"
"...."
"I had so much to tell you, so many things to share, so many more years of friendship- all over and the worst part, Haido" turning to give his friend a profile of his tear drenched face, Gackt watch as Hyde came from behind and placed a gentle hand on his shoulder, covering it with his own- a warmth filled both men.
"I never got to say goodbye"
"Gacchan..." letting his forehead fall forward onto Gackt hand that covered his own, Hyde stood silent. What was he to say? Long ago he came to accept death, and even now at forty, death was nothing to fear.
It was the leaving behind his loved ones, Hyde never stopped thinking about. Never stopped fearing.
"Haido....may I ask something of you?"
"What is it?" lifting his head to look at the young man's teary face, without thinking Hyde wiped away a trail; a small glimmer of a smile on Gackt's face responded
"When I die, may I be buried beside you?"
"Gackt! y-you-"
"Please? at least in this way, if one of us goes first...I'll be able to find you" Hyde opened his mouth to rebuke the idea, but the sincerity in Gackt's true dark brown eyes, the hope and fear were all too real to ignore. The smaller man sighed
"Fine, but until then no more talking about death alright? you're still young Gacchan, you have your whole life ahead of you" smiling at the man, Hyde turned and headed into his bedroom; it was about time he get to sleep. Gackt would be fine now.
"You can stay the night if you want, I'm heading to bed" the vocalist yawned out, not hearing the smile on Gackt's voice
"Thank you Haido"
"Hmm? you say something?" he called out, stcking his head out his doorframe as Gackt grinned back
"Nothing, but Haido I do hope you stop your smoking- it'll only hasten your death!"
"Gackt, shut up"
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Okay, my orginal thought was different somewhat but somehow it came out like this.... I'm really sorry! I tried to make it realistic as possible- I did do it right right? and I tried to end it on a lighter note, ya know?
But goodness, I really don't want to think about Hyde getting to be 60 and then retiring before fading away!!! it's too sad a thought!
Please read and review~!