Change?
Hey all, sorry I haven't been around lately. Just thought I'd give a little update on my life.
A while ago, I applied for a graduate assistantship with the psychology department. I was sure that I was going to get it, but since I haven't been 100% sure about wanting to go into the training and development program in the first place, I told myself, 'if you don't get the job, that's a sign that you need to go into something else.' Bullshit as that sounds, I didn't care because I knew I would get it.
Well, I didn't get it. So now, I am at a crossroads in my life. A major one. I am almost positive that I do not want to attend NMU for graduate school. The only reason I wanted to stay in the first place was because it was "easy"- meaning, I didn't have to move my stuff, I know all the professors, and I have my friends up there. It seemed like a no-brainer. Until I really thought about it. Will short-term happiness at my own apartment with my friends at NMU bring me to the long-term career and happiness that I've always been searching for? Do I REALLY want to go into training and development and probably be trying to climb the corporate ladder and probably be sitting at a desk for the rest of my life?
I'm pretty sure that answer is no. Therefore, I have applied to be a student-at-large at Northern Illinois University. It was too late to actually apply to any programs, but this way I'll be able to start taking classes in the fall. I will be going into the school counseling program. I think.
Nothing is 100% set yet. I am still very mixed. Live a free life in my own apartment with my friends, or stay here and get free rent from my family and cheaper tuition and probably a steady full-time job? It all just seems so crazy and random; well, it is all crazy and random. But I think I'm ready for a change. I'm fairly certain that my NMU ship has sailed and I'm ready to try something out of the ordinary. Maybe even something extraordinary.
Please feel free to comment with what you think, if you have any suggestions or anything like that or just wanna say hi. I could use a little support right now :) Hope you're all doing well.
A while ago, I applied for a graduate assistantship with the psychology department. I was sure that I was going to get it, but since I haven't been 100% sure about wanting to go into the training and development program in the first place, I told myself, 'if you don't get the job, that's a sign that you need to go into something else.' Bullshit as that sounds, I didn't care because I knew I would get it.
Well, I didn't get it. So now, I am at a crossroads in my life. A major one. I am almost positive that I do not want to attend NMU for graduate school. The only reason I wanted to stay in the first place was because it was "easy"- meaning, I didn't have to move my stuff, I know all the professors, and I have my friends up there. It seemed like a no-brainer. Until I really thought about it. Will short-term happiness at my own apartment with my friends at NMU bring me to the long-term career and happiness that I've always been searching for? Do I REALLY want to go into training and development and probably be trying to climb the corporate ladder and probably be sitting at a desk for the rest of my life?
I'm pretty sure that answer is no. Therefore, I have applied to be a student-at-large at Northern Illinois University. It was too late to actually apply to any programs, but this way I'll be able to start taking classes in the fall. I will be going into the school counseling program. I think.
Nothing is 100% set yet. I am still very mixed. Live a free life in my own apartment with my friends, or stay here and get free rent from my family and cheaper tuition and probably a steady full-time job? It all just seems so crazy and random; well, it is all crazy and random. But I think I'm ready for a change. I'm fairly certain that my NMU ship has sailed and I'm ready to try something out of the ordinary. Maybe even something extraordinary.
Please feel free to comment with what you think, if you have any suggestions or anything like that or just wanna say hi. I could use a little support right now :) Hope you're all doing well.