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im so fucking tired of dealing with your crap. im tired of dealing with your pettiness. your fakeness. and your dishonesty. im tired of the way you treat me. im tired of two-facedness and silent disapprovals.
if ive come to you, its so that you could tell me how it works, to point me in some sort of direction, if not your own. to comfort me or just to be brutally upfront. im not always looking for sympathy, sometimes just an ear. im sorry you're equally tired of listening. im sry its taken you so long to say so. and why is it ok for some to but not for me/others?
im tired of putting up with you being all over each other. of it being impossible for me to talk directly with you, because whenever i try, i get them too.
im sorry for getting in your way. for foiling your plan. for interrupting. for intruding. for being straight about shit and not bending. for being concerned. for protecting you - sometimes too much. im sry if you dont like me the way i am and cant accept me, flaws and all. im not going to make u try because i cant make myself care enough.
im tired of putting on my happy face just to make u shut up. of smiling so you dont ask me questions. and of acting - all the fucking time.
so if u dont want me around. just fuck off, or tell me to.
dont tell me you love me. thats not what i want to hear.
and you is not the same person.
if ive come to you, its so that you could tell me how it works, to point me in some sort of direction, if not your own. to comfort me or just to be brutally upfront. im not always looking for sympathy, sometimes just an ear. im sorry you're equally tired of listening. im sry its taken you so long to say so. and why is it ok for some to but not for me/others?
im tired of putting up with you being all over each other. of it being impossible for me to talk directly with you, because whenever i try, i get them too.
im sorry for getting in your way. for foiling your plan. for interrupting. for intruding. for being straight about shit and not bending. for being concerned. for protecting you - sometimes too much. im sry if you dont like me the way i am and cant accept me, flaws and all. im not going to make u try because i cant make myself care enough.
im tired of putting on my happy face just to make u shut up. of smiling so you dont ask me questions. and of acting - all the fucking time.
so if u dont want me around. just fuck off, or tell me to.
dont tell me you love me. thats not what i want to hear.
and you is not the same person.