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Firstly i would like to point out that it is 5am so if i get this a big jumbled i apologise.
a few months ago when marlo first asked me to write live journals it seemed like a great idea... we all know how much i missed all of you, and telling you all my stories on msn individually got exhausting and repeatitive. This was a way for us to keep in touch and let each other know what was goin on in our lives and make the distance seem that much smaller. However when i was writing my stories, i never thought that anyone besides you would ever read them, (yes, im stupid, because livejournals are on the internet...and therefore anyone can get them) Because i thought that no one besides you could ever read them i wrote stories in a skewed way. My stories had exagerations and lies to express how i was feeling at a certain point. For example saying some is evil and a bitch because your presently mad at them. that doesnt mean that they are a bitch or that i think they are one. (this is clearly bridget jones styles).
I wrote that way becuase i thought that you (the bffs) were the only ones readin them and that you would know that is how i am writing, since frankly u have started knowing things recently before i say them ("are u sick" "umm...how did u know"-good one mar). These stories were never meant to hurt anyone, and since they did hurt people and friendships, i hate livejournals and have been quite mad at myself. It really wasnt on purpose. I never meant to hurt anyone with the things i write, and truly hope this is behind us... because although i was wrong in this, i cant keep caring it around. I dont really know what else to say on this becuase ive already said it all.
So this comes to my new issue, which is that a number of you have been bitchint that i havent updated my live journal, fist of all the reason for that was because i hated livejournals and felt that if they could hurt a person and a friendship in that way, then i didnt want to have one, (clearly im not mature enough, judging by the way i write) but this doesnt satisfy you the best friends. So i will start writing again... but im goin to keep the fabrications out of it... bascially im goin to try to tell my stories without hurting others. and frankly i might watch what im saying a bit more... ever have a secret (crush) and then if comes out...because ur livejournals are public.... oh man...
For future reference in the chance that my live journals offend anyone, im sorry, there not meant to, there meant to convey what im feeling to my best friends who are hours away, and sometimes feel out of touch with me. (I would stick to the phone if it wasnt so exspensive)
i will talk to u all again soon, i hope everything is good with everyone,
for the best friends, i love and miss you all,
and im sorry for making u read this incredibly long journal...seriously its 5:30am...what am i doin up? ..am goin to bed. i hope you all have a great day, talk to u all soon, RH on the 20th!
a few months ago when marlo first asked me to write live journals it seemed like a great idea... we all know how much i missed all of you, and telling you all my stories on msn individually got exhausting and repeatitive. This was a way for us to keep in touch and let each other know what was goin on in our lives and make the distance seem that much smaller. However when i was writing my stories, i never thought that anyone besides you would ever read them, (yes, im stupid, because livejournals are on the internet...and therefore anyone can get them) Because i thought that no one besides you could ever read them i wrote stories in a skewed way. My stories had exagerations and lies to express how i was feeling at a certain point. For example saying some is evil and a bitch because your presently mad at them. that doesnt mean that they are a bitch or that i think they are one. (this is clearly bridget jones styles).
I wrote that way becuase i thought that you (the bffs) were the only ones readin them and that you would know that is how i am writing, since frankly u have started knowing things recently before i say them ("are u sick" "umm...how did u know"-good one mar). These stories were never meant to hurt anyone, and since they did hurt people and friendships, i hate livejournals and have been quite mad at myself. It really wasnt on purpose. I never meant to hurt anyone with the things i write, and truly hope this is behind us... because although i was wrong in this, i cant keep caring it around. I dont really know what else to say on this becuase ive already said it all.
So this comes to my new issue, which is that a number of you have been bitchint that i havent updated my live journal, fist of all the reason for that was because i hated livejournals and felt that if they could hurt a person and a friendship in that way, then i didnt want to have one, (clearly im not mature enough, judging by the way i write) but this doesnt satisfy you the best friends. So i will start writing again... but im goin to keep the fabrications out of it... bascially im goin to try to tell my stories without hurting others. and frankly i might watch what im saying a bit more... ever have a secret (crush) and then if comes out...because ur livejournals are public.... oh man...
For future reference in the chance that my live journals offend anyone, im sorry, there not meant to, there meant to convey what im feeling to my best friends who are hours away, and sometimes feel out of touch with me. (I would stick to the phone if it wasnt so exspensive)
i will talk to u all again soon, i hope everything is good with everyone,
for the best friends, i love and miss you all,
and im sorry for making u read this incredibly long journal...seriously its 5:30am...what am i doin up? ..am goin to bed. i hope you all have a great day, talk to u all soon, RH on the 20th!