a place to secretly rant...
well, as no-one actually reads this, why not use it to rant without others rolling their eyes in a "not a again" sigh.
I just get sick of feeling like i'm flogging a dead horse. i get very little help from my partner of nearly 6 years, saying the he will when we get our own place.. he just hates being down stairs. well fucking news flash! so do i!
i'm sick of working a 5 day week of 9hrs and then cooking(or ging to get food) on top of keeping the place tidy, doing the washing (and walking the dog) he does nothing. and coming to walk the dog with me or taking me and the dog some were is just too much to ask! i have to wait til its convenant to go shopping (when he can be bothered). and thinks he's gods gift because he's organised camping a few times.
My father and girlfriend are so fucking petty and two faced (ok not som much the girl friend) and i'm sick of the constant bullshit.
Work is the same, everyone esle seems to get away with everything, yet i'm the first to be told if i've not done somthing, or if i'm chating.
I start college in september, i'm going to live my dream. But i can't help i'm going to go though a lot before i reach that dream... not the reaching for the dream... granted thats going to be a lot of hard work. i mean emotional pain, no doupt i'll be forced to re-think my relationship. i'll probably snap and say somthing stupid to my family (long time coming... i'm sick of being the 'bigger person')
and all i want is help you know? is too much to ask to help wash up? clean up? take the plates down? cook once in a while? no he can't do any of that... i have to tell him too, and he moans anyway. i look at my friends and their boyfriends/husbands and i'm jealous.
also i want the petty bullshit to stop, i'm starting to hate my father and i never thought i'd feel that.
i'm tired of feeling constantly pissed off and angry, but i don't see that changeing any time soon. I'm just going to put all my energy into my college work, screw everyone else.
I just get sick of feeling like i'm flogging a dead horse. i get very little help from my partner of nearly 6 years, saying the he will when we get our own place.. he just hates being down stairs. well fucking news flash! so do i!
i'm sick of working a 5 day week of 9hrs and then cooking(or ging to get food) on top of keeping the place tidy, doing the washing (and walking the dog) he does nothing. and coming to walk the dog with me or taking me and the dog some were is just too much to ask! i have to wait til its convenant to go shopping (when he can be bothered). and thinks he's gods gift because he's organised camping a few times.
My father and girlfriend are so fucking petty and two faced (ok not som much the girl friend) and i'm sick of the constant bullshit.
Work is the same, everyone esle seems to get away with everything, yet i'm the first to be told if i've not done somthing, or if i'm chating.
I start college in september, i'm going to live my dream. But i can't help i'm going to go though a lot before i reach that dream... not the reaching for the dream... granted thats going to be a lot of hard work. i mean emotional pain, no doupt i'll be forced to re-think my relationship. i'll probably snap and say somthing stupid to my family (long time coming... i'm sick of being the 'bigger person')
and all i want is help you know? is too much to ask to help wash up? clean up? take the plates down? cook once in a while? no he can't do any of that... i have to tell him too, and he moans anyway. i look at my friends and their boyfriends/husbands and i'm jealous.
also i want the petty bullshit to stop, i'm starting to hate my father and i never thought i'd feel that.
i'm tired of feeling constantly pissed off and angry, but i don't see that changeing any time soon. I'm just going to put all my energy into my college work, screw everyone else.