It's hurt, but I believe they're more hurt than us
When one of my friend told me in one of my arashian chatting group that they will be hiatus, I think that must be joke. As they are easily believed unofficial statements many times. But I feel not urge to reply to her, I want to read any informations from facebook and another social media (except twitter, as twitter is most scariest place if this is true, and my heart isn't ready with rants.)
When I know this is official and watched their video about the hiatus, I feel my heart stop beating for a second. I know that someday they will be hiatus or disband, but with all festive about 5x20 this is really shock me out.
I believe they really planned everything carefully to tell us about this. They want to give us the best memories before their own will to get their own freedoms. They were enduring everything they want and their own dream to stay to be our star, to give us courage to live better in this world. I believe they are give most of their time to us, they always try their best to keep going although they tired and need rest.
I'm very thankful to them to always chose us first than their own desire. I always feel so bad when they give up their happiness for us. It's looks we are the antagonist of their own live story. I dont want to be bad to them. All I want is let them to be happy as they make us happy.
Love is two way, isn't?
They make us happy and I think we also must make them happy. I feel pity of them when they told us that they must be disguise to feel the normal life.
Sometimes I want to be free from my work and have fun with all of my heart content, and I easily get it if I just going to next city 2 hours from my town. But them? they must go to another country to get it, and they cannot use their own mother language to get the fun. If that is my life, I think I will end that career soon. But them? They still keep it and not end it with bad intention. They still give us time to us to prepare and understand them. They not abandon us, they care about us more than their selves.
They are wonderful guys who love us whole heartly. They want us to keep living with happiness in the future. I will treasure them with all of my heart.