Bored:)
Hello LJ fans!
Its been a little past a week since I updated. Not much happening. Bush won the presidency, which is good..Although I feel for Kerry. Two years of such difficult campaigning for nothing:(
Halloween weekend was fun:) As spending time with Erik always is..I heart him, very much so. we went to Knotts Scary Farm on Saturday. Took my doctor's note in from knee surgery and didnt have to wait in ANY lines! yes! sweetness. It was a lot of fun. Halloween was a little awkward...but still made the best of it. Played poker (which is ALWAYS good times), went to a haunted house, and went to Erik's dads house.
I read everyone's LJ's or Myspaces..or I talk to people and everyone partied that weekend. Either at school, home, or Monster Massive. Getting drunk, or doing good drugs. I feel rather, well, melancholy over the situation. Maybe melancholy isn't the right word. Well it's a mix of melancholy and perplexed. Melanplexed, lol. I feel like a really big part of me is over the whole "party" scene...Is that normal? Even at 19? I feel althoughit's not normal to be jaded. Everyone around me is still partying really hard...and as much as I'm over it. There's still that little part of me that isn't. And this little part eats at me sometimes..it's like the devil that lives on my shoulder. The devil that tells me to be naughty, and try different things. To party hard, because life is short and you only have one life left to live. To fuck life and just get high.
But thats not reality is it? I'm sure if my life was that way, I wouldn't be the person I am. And shit, I like who I am. SHIT, I love my life. I still have fun, and enjoy my time on this planet. I enjoy my friends, family, and I have an awesome boyfriend whom has a very bright future..as bright as mine is:) And sometimes I want to be bad...but who doesn't? And sometimes I still am;)And frankly I think I would hate myself if I didn't give a shit about my life.
So, I should flick the devil right off, and say FUCK YOU!
Thats my two cents.
FIN
Its been a little past a week since I updated. Not much happening. Bush won the presidency, which is good..Although I feel for Kerry. Two years of such difficult campaigning for nothing:(
Halloween weekend was fun:) As spending time with Erik always is..I heart him, very much so. we went to Knotts Scary Farm on Saturday. Took my doctor's note in from knee surgery and didnt have to wait in ANY lines! yes! sweetness. It was a lot of fun. Halloween was a little awkward...but still made the best of it. Played poker (which is ALWAYS good times), went to a haunted house, and went to Erik's dads house.
I read everyone's LJ's or Myspaces..or I talk to people and everyone partied that weekend. Either at school, home, or Monster Massive. Getting drunk, or doing good drugs. I feel rather, well, melancholy over the situation. Maybe melancholy isn't the right word. Well it's a mix of melancholy and perplexed. Melanplexed, lol. I feel like a really big part of me is over the whole "party" scene...Is that normal? Even at 19? I feel althoughit's not normal to be jaded. Everyone around me is still partying really hard...and as much as I'm over it. There's still that little part of me that isn't. And this little part eats at me sometimes..it's like the devil that lives on my shoulder. The devil that tells me to be naughty, and try different things. To party hard, because life is short and you only have one life left to live. To fuck life and just get high.
But thats not reality is it? I'm sure if my life was that way, I wouldn't be the person I am. And shit, I like who I am. SHIT, I love my life. I still have fun, and enjoy my time on this planet. I enjoy my friends, family, and I have an awesome boyfriend whom has a very bright future..as bright as mine is:) And sometimes I want to be bad...but who doesn't? And sometimes I still am;)And frankly I think I would hate myself if I didn't give a shit about my life.
So, I should flick the devil right off, and say FUCK YOU!
Thats my two cents.
FIN