some people seem to think..

Jul 12, 2008 23:33

that I have this aversion for doctors..

merely because I say I don't trust them nor will I go to one unless I am near death or dead..
the reason I bring this up.. is I think I figured out why I had to go home early from work on Friday.

now.. me leaving work is weird.. even eli-the-manager-dude could tell I was really frakking off
I've worked with broken fingers, glass in my foot, burning glass on various parts of my body, third degree burns from hot-ass-oil that covered basically my entire fore-arms, and broken ribs (actually broke my ribs at work by falling eight feet onto concrete then finished the day out)

so, when I asked manager dude to help me out for a sec.. he simply took one look at me and said sit down for a second

my head was spinning.. heart going at about a thousand beats a minute.. breath all ragged.. and apparently I was pale as shit to (looked in the mirror and the only color I had on my face were from my hazel eyes)
and then it got worse..

manager-dude checked on me.. hot-cool chick checked on me.. someone gave me a sugar test..
so I text'd skitabug.. just in case I croaked.. She would at least know something was amiss
text'd roomie to come to work and fucking get me.. I could hardly sit in a chair, much less drive at that point and to have him call my dad.. just in case I croaked

manager dude finally said for me to just go home..
not in a 'fuck you, you loafing son-of-a-bitch.. get the fuck out of here' sort of way..
more of a 'you look like you are about to die.. go to the hospital or home at least'  (he did suggest the hospital part btw)

so.. I went home... waited just over an hour for roomie to come get me.. cause.. I guess saying ' come get me ' isn't really clear as to what it means.. :-p
I finally gave up though.. and drove myself home.. which sort of sucked.. cause.. I was still a bit woozey

I was left to ponder though..
what the hell is wrong with me?

it wasn't a panic attack.. I know those very well and simply work through them

I think it was partially exhaustion (I've been sleeping about three hours a day now for a few weeks.. I guess.. hard to judge)
but also my inner ear.. (I've sort of had an ear infection for a month or so.. black puss-like stuff.. rather nasty.. so I figured I would share it with everyone :-D )

had the day off today.. and was able to sleep about four hours with a five minute nap.. so.. technically.. this is the most rested I have been for a while

not as dizzy or woozy.. but.. things are still very skewed

honestly though.. what would a doctor have done?
poked me..
prodded me..
charged me a frak ton of money..
and then prescribed a bunch of meds I couldn't afford..

and.. I'm not dead.. so.. it couldn't have been anything terribly serious

hot-cool chick texted me earlier in the day.. and we chatted just a bit over texts.. she was wondering how I was doing
it still weirds me out.. but.. I'm trying to avoid the self-depreciation thing so.. its just weird that she wants to talk to me outside of work (or at work)

so.. anyone know any home cures for a messed up inner-ear..
I can sort of hear out of it.. but it feels sloshy and clogged
and then theres the thing that if I close  my eyes and move my head I tend to almost fall over (discovered that in the shower)

any hints from heloise on this would be appreciated though

Nix

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