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Jul 31, 2006 17:49

ok so i am sitting here looking at NIU's undergrad application and reading out loud to myself what i need to fill out. I am contemplating how i will fill everything out so it all looks presentable and shows that i worked so hard to get back in. and it hit me when I was reading the waiver for paying the $30 application fee and the part of the application that is only for transfer and reentering students. HOw it states i have attended niu as an undergrad and am reentering as an undergrad and listing out all the courses that i am going to be taking in the fall at harper and if i have or will earning any degrees. I started to cry b/c i am earning my AA and it hit me that i never thought i would have so much drive and so much strength to actually go through will trying to get back into niu. i was never a real go getter in school and now since i failed i have worked so hard to prove to myself and my mom and everyone else, but mostly (90%) for myself. I never in a million years thought that i would have so much drive, persistance, and above all strength to actually go after something academically. I think it is becasue i failed, which was one of the best things that could have ever happened to me. it opened my eyes to show me that i can work hard and achieve something i really want if i really want it bad enough. it gave me a chance to really look at what I wanted and not what i thought everyone else wanted for me. i changed my major to education and i love it. i know it iwll be tough but i am going to do. i really think it is something that i have a true passion for. i loved observing clif's aunt's classroom and interacting with her students and seeing what a teacher does. i have never been so excited about something in my life, academically. i am so proud of myself for doing all of this. wow! go me go!!!
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