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I'm an aunt again. Reagan Whitley Pieren was born July 2nd at 5:38 pm and weighed 7 lbs 12 oz, and was 20.5 inches long. She's such a cute baby too. She looks like Lisa. I can't believe Garrett is a dad, but he's doing good.
So, I wanted to come write about my awesome trip to Florida...but I can't seem to do that right now.
Kevin passed away tonight around 7. I was cuddling with Norah when my family got the call. So then I just handed her back to Jordan and left. I had to go for a walk or something. So I got half way up the road and just started crying. I called Mary just to talk to someone, but she didn't answer her phone, and she hasn't called me back...so I dunno. I guess that's okay. I just walked around for like 30 min. sat down for awhile and cried. Then I came back home and I thought I'd be okay, but then my sister Amber asked if I was okay, and then Kelly asked if I was okay, so then I kinda lost it again. Even now...
I know he's in a much better place and is "whole" again. He was with his family when he died too, except 2 of his kids weren't home. I think Lauren was walking the dog, and Mackenzie was at the beach with one of his friends. And I'm sure they're sad they weren't there when he died. I saw Lauren and Mason in the store like an hour before Kevin died. And like 30 min before he did, my mom asked if I wanted to go over and see him, and I said "No. I don't want to intrude." Cuz I guess there's like 27 people at his house, cuz he's been really bad the last couple days and they knew he wouldn't make it much longer. But now I'm hating myself like I knew I would be if I didn't go say goodbye to him. I think the funeral is going to be on Saturday. I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling right now. I've had so many people in my life die...but its different with them all. And I know I shouldn't be sad, cuz I know Kevin is better off. But I can't help but be sad.
Anyway, I think I'm going to go lay in my bed and cry myself to sleep now...
So, I wanted to come write about my awesome trip to Florida...but I can't seem to do that right now.
Kevin passed away tonight around 7. I was cuddling with Norah when my family got the call. So then I just handed her back to Jordan and left. I had to go for a walk or something. So I got half way up the road and just started crying. I called Mary just to talk to someone, but she didn't answer her phone, and she hasn't called me back...so I dunno. I guess that's okay. I just walked around for like 30 min. sat down for awhile and cried. Then I came back home and I thought I'd be okay, but then my sister Amber asked if I was okay, and then Kelly asked if I was okay, so then I kinda lost it again. Even now...
I know he's in a much better place and is "whole" again. He was with his family when he died too, except 2 of his kids weren't home. I think Lauren was walking the dog, and Mackenzie was at the beach with one of his friends. And I'm sure they're sad they weren't there when he died. I saw Lauren and Mason in the store like an hour before Kevin died. And like 30 min before he did, my mom asked if I wanted to go over and see him, and I said "No. I don't want to intrude." Cuz I guess there's like 27 people at his house, cuz he's been really bad the last couple days and they knew he wouldn't make it much longer. But now I'm hating myself like I knew I would be if I didn't go say goodbye to him. I think the funeral is going to be on Saturday. I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling right now. I've had so many people in my life die...but its different with them all. And I know I shouldn't be sad, cuz I know Kevin is better off. But I can't help but be sad.
Anyway, I think I'm going to go lay in my bed and cry myself to sleep now...