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Well. Yet again i am feeling very vexed. There is someone in my life that i thought i knew pretty well, but this person is doing an amazing job of proving that thought wrong. As josh watkins says it blows my mind. it really does. I really dont know what to think or believe. this is someone i thought had many ...... i dont know what even to say. i hold this person in high repect i'll put it that way.(i paused in typing. weird)
Also, last week i was sitting at my house when someone i was not suspecting showed up. My old buddy Matt. I grew up with matt. He lived across the street from me for about till i was in nineth grade. then he moved out to springville and i helped his family build themselves a house. I was very close to him up until i moved to auburn last year. We lost touch and up until the other day i had not even talked to him fo about 6 months. it was good to talk to him and find out how his life was going. it kind of depressed because i know he could do better. but he is not doing bad at all. he has himself a nice gal and a good job. he gave me a number i could use to get in touch with him. smart me misplaced it.
Well i might be haging out with kim a little this weekend. i hope i can cause i havent hung out with her in like a year or two. that will probablly put me in a better mood. that and the weekend is always good. i really need to get a life. here i am almost twenty years old living at home, which in itself is not bad, but also i am not dong my best in school, i dont work alot of hours, i will be indebt for years thanks to student loans(which isn't that bad), iam not the great christian i know i can be, i am single(not always bad but almost all time), i cant tell for the life of me if a girl likes me or not, almost every part of y mind tells me that there is no way that a girl like this one or that one could even like me, that is the good ol' depressed self-loathing person that i am used to. well back to the list, i have very few plans, i am not that great the money i do make, and am sitting up typing in to the night about my problems.
sorry for going on another pitty trip for myself.
Well i am sitting here watching Connan. Christina Ricci is on. She is so attractive. There are three actresses i find very atractive. Christina Ricci, Lacey Chabert, Sandra Bullock.
Also, last week i was sitting at my house when someone i was not suspecting showed up. My old buddy Matt. I grew up with matt. He lived across the street from me for about till i was in nineth grade. then he moved out to springville and i helped his family build themselves a house. I was very close to him up until i moved to auburn last year. We lost touch and up until the other day i had not even talked to him fo about 6 months. it was good to talk to him and find out how his life was going. it kind of depressed because i know he could do better. but he is not doing bad at all. he has himself a nice gal and a good job. he gave me a number i could use to get in touch with him. smart me misplaced it.
Well i might be haging out with kim a little this weekend. i hope i can cause i havent hung out with her in like a year or two. that will probablly put me in a better mood. that and the weekend is always good. i really need to get a life. here i am almost twenty years old living at home, which in itself is not bad, but also i am not dong my best in school, i dont work alot of hours, i will be indebt for years thanks to student loans(which isn't that bad), iam not the great christian i know i can be, i am single(not always bad but almost all time), i cant tell for the life of me if a girl likes me or not, almost every part of y mind tells me that there is no way that a girl like this one or that one could even like me, that is the good ol' depressed self-loathing person that i am used to. well back to the list, i have very few plans, i am not that great the money i do make, and am sitting up typing in to the night about my problems.
sorry for going on another pitty trip for myself.
Well i am sitting here watching Connan. Christina Ricci is on. She is so attractive. There are three actresses i find very atractive. Christina Ricci, Lacey Chabert, Sandra Bullock.