the last 5 years
Well, where to start.... I love my life. I have for a very long time now. I have accomplished a few things over the years. I have a nice car, a decent job, i got an apartment i lived in for a couple years, then i bought a house, im still with my beautiful girlfriend that i couldnt love anymore if i tried. Everything is great, i have two nieces and two nephews now. Kayden who is 3, sky who is 2, crystal will be one, and pheonix is a newborn. They are my whole world, kayden being the first has my special attatchment. That smile of his lights up my entire day no matter what i going on. I love them all very much. I live a completely normal life these days. Its almost eerie how normal it has become. I goto sleep early so i can wake up early for work, i work all day, come home to spend time with my girlfriend and visit my nieces and nephews, pretty much my typical day. As simple as it may seem this was a long journey getting to this point. There were a thousand bumps in the road and im surely lucky i even survived to make it here today. Being that i have already accomplished the majority of my short term goals, the plan now is to keep building on them and going further. I no longer have those lapses of judgement that bring me 10 steps back after i take a step forward. Life now is a constant, steady progression forward. I feel so lucky to have everything i do. Just sitting here in my house that i own, sometimes i look around and think wow.... This is really all mine. On top of it, i have found my one and only. My girlfriend couldnt fit me any better. There is absolutely nobody that could ever come close to being as amazing as she is. The love i have for her is almost too much. The feeling when i hold her in my arms, her chest against mine, her soft embrace, her breath on my neck, the warmth and comfort, oh nothing could compare. At that moment i feel all of the weight of the world lift right off me, my mind at ease, i can breathe, i can feel, i am safe. No longer suffocated, gripped by the bounds of hate anguish fear, chained down by the struggles of day to day life. No, it all fades away... Gravity is no longer a force utilized against me. Im floating in a perfectly exquisit utopian dream. This is what its like just to hug her. Imagine how amazing it is to have her in my day to day life. Anyway, i have absolutely zero complaints. I thought maybe i would elaborate more on tge struggles i went through to get to this point. But, i dont really feel that its all that pertainent. What do i write about now that i have no real problems? I guess this journal will become rather.... Well, normal