well, shit....
My two weeks off work was amazing.... i pretty much drank the whole time.... i also got a new phone. The droid 2, which is awesome. But, its not as easy to type on as the blackberry was. This phone is amazing besides that though. I'm Fuckin stressing tonight though. I'll get to that later though.... while i've been Goin out i've met alot of new people. Think i might have gotten alcohol poisoning the other night though. I started drinking a half pint of vodka, then i went out and had some 50 cent drafts, then i saw this guy i met a week before. It was his birthday and he kept buying us different shots. I'm sure i had to have had close to 10 shots with him that i remember. Then, i saw a few more bar friends... we had a couple more drinks, then we all went 4 oclockin. I blank out alot by this point... i remember having another drink, then im in someones car and we went to another bar, then i think i liked and i was in someone elses car and im pretty sure i didn't kno n e one of the 5 ppl in there, we went to the strip club. After that i remember getting dropped off in pekin, i guess i got water from hardees, kim said i got home at ant 6am soaked bc it was raining. That's pretty much been the last two weeks, it went like that ant everynight. I went back to work a few days ago... it totally sucks being back, but its better than being at home. Its just constant fighting over stupid shit. I really hate being here, but hopefully it wont be for long. Shit here has been crazy, my sister is a psycho and my other sister has her own issues. Its not getting better, something seems to escalate everyday. My dad is a Fuckin dick all the time.... i just want to knock his dumbass out sometimes. Im constantly being blamed for shit i have no control over and getting in fights over the dumbest ass things. Most nights i just go to the bar to get away for awhile to get away from the bullshit till they go to bed and of course drinking relaxes me. But, when im over excited or really upset i tend to over do it with the drinking..... then i embarass the he'll out of myself. I hate waking up and remembering when i do somethig or say something stupid. Sometimes its so bad i just would rather die then deal with it. That's why im trying to get away.... i don't make enough money though. Im thinking ant quitting my job to get a better one. But, what if it dosent work out. That would really screw me over, bc my bills are so expensive. Im trying to decide if its worth the risk. At this point in time, i feel like its now or never. I can't continue doing the same things and expecting a different result. Im nervouse, but im gonna give it another couple month. Then, ill probably just go for it. Idk, i guess we will see... im almost to the bar though..... so maybe more tommorow. Im out