something is very wrong...
I am just fuckin mean and irritable all the time unless I'm fucked up. I look like shit and I'm even fuckin up at work. I'm doing like stupid shit... Like, I think my brain is fried. Nothing makes me happy and I don't have fun doing anything. I think that's why I feel like just dieing today. I feel like nothing is ever going to be enjoyable again.
I went to work today and was late again. It never matters what time I go to bed, I never want to wake up. On my walk home an old friend picked me up and we got high. I got home and ate a bunch of food. Shortly after I passed out. Lynz woke me up and I was being pissy with her, then just started snappin out about shit that was going on. I'm even more sick today, which dosent help. Then, austins boyfriend and I got into a fight. Normally I don't like confrontation whatsoever. But, I just said fuck it, I don't care who hates me. I'm really stressed. I need some vodka and I haven't restocked. I have meth and heroine... But, that's not what I need right now. I may have to resort to it though. Its taking forever to get vodka. Ugh... I hate not having a stash. This is horrible, I feel and look like shit.
I went to work today and was late again. It never matters what time I go to bed, I never want to wake up. On my walk home an old friend picked me up and we got high. I got home and ate a bunch of food. Shortly after I passed out. Lynz woke me up and I was being pissy with her, then just started snappin out about shit that was going on. I'm even more sick today, which dosent help. Then, austins boyfriend and I got into a fight. Normally I don't like confrontation whatsoever. But, I just said fuck it, I don't care who hates me. I'm really stressed. I need some vodka and I haven't restocked. I have meth and heroine... But, that's not what I need right now. I may have to resort to it though. Its taking forever to get vodka. Ugh... I hate not having a stash. This is horrible, I feel and look like shit.