No one can fix this shit.
Im so mad at hanna. god. im just so sick of her lies and her taking advantage of me. its shitty. so someone called me last night right before i feel asleep. if he hadnt called me at that minute i wouldnt have gotten up. Justin...who i havent talked to since april or may. we are technically still going out so that would make our relationship about 7 months long. i missed him so much. i just never heard from him again. i thought i did something wrong and he never wanted to see me again. He had to move to south carolina. he told me that he was just scared to pick up the phone and call me because he was so intimidated by me. im not sure i believe that...but im sure hes been busy. he said that if i can get permission from my parents that he could buy me a plane ticket during christmas break so that i could stay with him. he kept asking me if i was serious about it...so im htinking he's pretty serious about it. so i dont really know if we are still going out or what. its really confusing. god...i thought that part of my life was fucking gone forever. the perfect time...the time where i was just realizing how much i missed my old life. monica...you know what im talking about. jesus christ. so who says that long distance relationships never work? FUCK YOU ALL!!! 7 months and hes in fucking south carolina. like 400 miles away. actually i really have no clue how far away south carolina is from here but whatever. i was talking to him and he told me to look at the moon...and that even though he wasnt right there with me...he was still...there with me...you know. god it was so fuckin crazy man. anyway its time for school. oh joy!.
Across the night
It was the moon that stole my slumber
Across the night
I fell in love with people sleeping
And hugged a man's arthritic shoulder
I fell tired, asleep in a golden ocean
Your eyes perspired, a spike in my fascination
I don't mean to make you cry
But this feeling will run right through the night
And I'll only make you cry with these feelings
Sleepless, untamed without a leash on the light around me
So let us be married and have another baby
Coz I don't wanna be lonely I just wanna be alone
Yes let's just get married shouting baby, baby, babies
"You'll never sleep at all"
But I don't wanna be lonely
Never seen the sunshine
From higher points than sunrise
Across the night
It was the moon that stole my slumber
Across the night
I fell in love with people sleeping
And hugged a man's arthritic shoulder
I fell tired, asleep in a golden ocean
Your eyes perspired, a spike in my fascination
I don't mean to make you cry
But this feeling will run right through the night
And I'll only make you cry with these feelings
Sleepless, untamed without a leash on the light around me
So let us be married and have another baby
Coz I don't wanna be lonely I just wanna be alone
Yes let's just get married shouting baby, baby, babies
"You'll never sleep at all"
But I don't wanna be lonely
Never seen the sunshine
From higher points than sunrise