sigh....sadness
Cody has been with out his meds for qute some time....
he is acting weird... he is not my cody... I miss my cody... Manda is taking him to the Dr tommaro, or so i am told...
He is drifting away too...
I cant stand the idea of loseing him... I hope he knows that...
We never actually got married... we tell people we are... we have the licence.. it is just not signed... it could be at any moment
Cody pushed me to get it, now that we have it he comes up with reasons why to not get it signed...
It expires on the 15th...
Cody started to move in.. he is now haveing second thoughts....
I hope when te meds level him out he will be back to the old him... that takes about a week after the meds start... it is a week from to day that the licence expires.... if he lets that slide i will not be able to help but to back off... it will hurt to much... i wonder if he is doing this to hurt me....
if i lose him i will lose a part of my self.... i will never talk to jonny again.... Even if Cody leaves... i cant handle all that again.. i wish he never came back.... I wish Cody was here... to hear him so upset and torn on the phone just now makes me want to cry.. I just want to cry..... I want to hold hbutim and kiss away his pains....
I hope he comes home tomarro...
I really cant help but to start to want to back off of him... he is doing that to me.. i wont though not now... i know with out his meds he is not him... but if he dose back out of the marrage thing..... i will not be okay...
he is acting weird... he is not my cody... I miss my cody... Manda is taking him to the Dr tommaro, or so i am told...
He is drifting away too...
I cant stand the idea of loseing him... I hope he knows that...
We never actually got married... we tell people we are... we have the licence.. it is just not signed... it could be at any moment
Cody pushed me to get it, now that we have it he comes up with reasons why to not get it signed...
It expires on the 15th...
Cody started to move in.. he is now haveing second thoughts....
I hope when te meds level him out he will be back to the old him... that takes about a week after the meds start... it is a week from to day that the licence expires.... if he lets that slide i will not be able to help but to back off... it will hurt to much... i wonder if he is doing this to hurt me....
if i lose him i will lose a part of my self.... i will never talk to jonny again.... Even if Cody leaves... i cant handle all that again.. i wish he never came back.... I wish Cody was here... to hear him so upset and torn on the phone just now makes me want to cry.. I just want to cry..... I want to hold hbutim and kiss away his pains....
I hope he comes home tomarro...
I really cant help but to start to want to back off of him... he is doing that to me.. i wont though not now... i know with out his meds he is not him... but if he dose back out of the marrage thing..... i will not be okay...