my weekend
ok so i had a pretty eventful weekend. i went out to kissimmee to go help a friend move, i had another that was going to move this weekend too, but she put me on blast with a few things and i had planed to come back on saturday and help her move but im pissed at her for what she said and fr lieing about me so fuck it, i staied out there till sat night and then me and alex came home, i fucked up my shoulder and alex pinched a nerve in his neck but were doing ok now. i went to go play L5R today, lost as always but i still had fun. alex talked to mom "A" today and there plotting wedding stuff so i let them be, i know that were going to have the cermony in both jap. and english by some of my friends, the jap one staied in antartica for 6 months and was talking to pinguins in it. lol. it's only a small fee more ( 200 ) but hey it's worth it. Were doing good as the day gets closer and closer, less then a year left, and were getting everything planned out, we have a location, and the people to marry us, were telling people and inviteing them alreadyand as the day gets closer and closer, we get happier and happier.
he's sleeping right now, i cant sleep, but then again he was up for 22 hours and i have only been up 14 at this point. the cat is doing fine and were doing alright, money is a little tight but were makeing it. I care a lot about him and if he leaves me even though i talk so much shit I dont know what i would do i know that i would go crazy but i seriously think that i wouldnt be able to do much of anything. Becca and chris came by today, and chilled and alex's pills really do work, he had an anxianty attack today, but nothing happened, he could feal it but it just wouldnt go anywere it was like sitting in a roller coster and then, it not doing anything but getting 3 ft from were you start and having 3 miles of track but your not going anywere, the ride is done, what kind of a let down is that? not saying thaat i enjoy alex's attacks, just he likes to know that there going to end soon, and this one just didnt.
i went to go see my po on friday, and that should be my last viset. i geet off on my 19th b-day and thats less then a month away. i go to see her everymonth and well my birthday is november 7th so i dont think i have to go see her next month. im glad after two years and not vilating once, im doing great and fealing batter then ever. im just happy to have it over with.
I am going to try to quit smokeing here soon, my breathing is getting worse and my cheast starts to hurt every once and awhile, so im thinking that this is the best move for my health and to live a happysomewhat healthy life with alex and our children. we have another year here and then are thinking about moveing somewhere bigger, so we have more space. My friend who we just moved in asked up to move in there, but we like to be able to walk around the house naked, and thats just way to far away. we like it out here, theres no one really around and no one comes over much so i think we will stay around the same area for awhile but i do want to move out of this state, with the hot and no cold, maybe georgia, or something to that effect. Welli think this is one of the longest journals that i have wrote since i started spilling my guts to my friends or the ones that actually read this, not many comment on my things and i try to comment on every one else's so c'mon people show me some love.
cici
carlee
carleena
he's sleeping right now, i cant sleep, but then again he was up for 22 hours and i have only been up 14 at this point. the cat is doing fine and were doing alright, money is a little tight but were makeing it. I care a lot about him and if he leaves me even though i talk so much shit I dont know what i would do i know that i would go crazy but i seriously think that i wouldnt be able to do much of anything. Becca and chris came by today, and chilled and alex's pills really do work, he had an anxianty attack today, but nothing happened, he could feal it but it just wouldnt go anywere it was like sitting in a roller coster and then, it not doing anything but getting 3 ft from were you start and having 3 miles of track but your not going anywere, the ride is done, what kind of a let down is that? not saying thaat i enjoy alex's attacks, just he likes to know that there going to end soon, and this one just didnt.
i went to go see my po on friday, and that should be my last viset. i geet off on my 19th b-day and thats less then a month away. i go to see her everymonth and well my birthday is november 7th so i dont think i have to go see her next month. im glad after two years and not vilating once, im doing great and fealing batter then ever. im just happy to have it over with.
I am going to try to quit smokeing here soon, my breathing is getting worse and my cheast starts to hurt every once and awhile, so im thinking that this is the best move for my health and to live a happysomewhat healthy life with alex and our children. we have another year here and then are thinking about moveing somewhere bigger, so we have more space. My friend who we just moved in asked up to move in there, but we like to be able to walk around the house naked, and thats just way to far away. we like it out here, theres no one really around and no one comes over much so i think we will stay around the same area for awhile but i do want to move out of this state, with the hot and no cold, maybe georgia, or something to that effect. Welli think this is one of the longest journals that i have wrote since i started spilling my guts to my friends or the ones that actually read this, not many comment on my things and i try to comment on every one else's so c'mon people show me some love.
cici
carlee
carleena