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callin out your name, your face is everywhere i'm reachin gout to you to fin dthat your not there, i wake up every night to see the state i'm in, it's like an endless fight i never seem to win...i can't go on, as long as i believe, i cant let go when i keep wondering...
So this sucks, kinda in that place where i'd never thought i'd be ever again. Ya know its true what they say, you never truly know what you lost till it's gone... love is a powerful motherfucker.... most ppl dont even know when you experiance true love till its not there no more and the reality of the loss sets in.
I helped an amazing human being walk out the doors of my life and by hell do i ever regret it now. It's one thing to find someone decent but then watch em walk away...fuck might as well gave that blade thats stuck in my heart a twist while i was at it.
She's off to a far away place, I'm stuck behind here... hoping and waiting that sometihng good may happen. It's like a rerun of a girl from 10 yrs ago with me...same thing happened all over agian... whats the matter with me...i'm so stupid...
All i can hope for now is a second chance which i may or may not get. Life for me is hard these days and with that added on to it, well thats the biggest kick in the nuts i've ever taken. Funny how life fuks with ya..toys with your mind, your heart and soul...why is it we have to fuck something up so bad that we have to wait around in agony before we realize anything?
thats it for me....
So this sucks, kinda in that place where i'd never thought i'd be ever again. Ya know its true what they say, you never truly know what you lost till it's gone... love is a powerful motherfucker.... most ppl dont even know when you experiance true love till its not there no more and the reality of the loss sets in.
I helped an amazing human being walk out the doors of my life and by hell do i ever regret it now. It's one thing to find someone decent but then watch em walk away...fuck might as well gave that blade thats stuck in my heart a twist while i was at it.
She's off to a far away place, I'm stuck behind here... hoping and waiting that sometihng good may happen. It's like a rerun of a girl from 10 yrs ago with me...same thing happened all over agian... whats the matter with me...i'm so stupid...
All i can hope for now is a second chance which i may or may not get. Life for me is hard these days and with that added on to it, well thats the biggest kick in the nuts i've ever taken. Funny how life fuks with ya..toys with your mind, your heart and soul...why is it we have to fuck something up so bad that we have to wait around in agony before we realize anything?
thats it for me....