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I've been cut off from the world of internetting for about a week now. Our neighbors up and moved and took their beautiful free wifi with them :( so I suffer greatly knowing I cant just go online at home. I can only check email at work. so I know when people write on my wall or stuff like that I just cant respond. sad.
Richard and I go in July to a first time home buyers workshop! woohoo! Seems like yesterday we were living in a dorm room sharing a 12x12 space and now we want somthing bigger, like a 2 bedroom HOUSE! ooooooo. and around here we have found a few we like and a few we like but hate the location (ie. on a hill or a corner) but we are cancelling them off the list just yet and a few fixer uppers we arent too keen on but for the right price.... I'm nervous about getting the loan/morgage for it though because of all you read about how tough it has been to be approved. thats why we decided to go through this company for help. It'll be 50 bucks for the entire process, including the workshop, meetings, showings, consultations, up until the move in date! so its a cheap deal in the long run.
My grampa died last month. on my nanas birthday. it was rough on my mum. which in turn made it rough on me because she would call all the time crying. cant stand it when she does that. and there were a few of her siblings that had restraining orders on each other and bad issues going on so I'm so glad I didnt participate in any of the events around his death, minus the short trip to say good bye (which had it's own drama due to an aunt withholding grumpies pain meds and my cousin getting a felony theft thing from the bank she works at) I'm so glad I do not talk to that side of the family. yuck.
I've been pretty depressed these past few weeks. Just feeling alone and I cry alot. just at nothing. almost every day on my way to work I shed a few tears and feel stupid. I shed a few more when I go to bed. just cant stop. but it's not sobbing just watery eyes that overflow. sometimes at my desk at work I shed a few more. it's pretty lame now that I think about it. but I cant help it.
my tomato plant it dying. it just hates me.
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