things...
my good friend and co worker got in a terrible snow mobile accident this week and is not doing well. I feel so bad for her and her babies... She hit a pole going fast. broke both her legs and has internal bleeding. It is so sad. and I'm sad about it.
My other friend had her last day on wednesday. i didn't get her job (social worker) due to not having experience. But i'm good enough to be the inbetween girl while the new employee workes out her two weeks at her old job. so i was pissed because tuesday Sue told me Im not going to have the job but the next morning having her calling me to see if i was interested in doing it for two weeks.... grrr..the worst part was that she said she knew i was a loyal employee and wouldnt leave just because I didnt get the new job... oh how pissed was I. Almost enough to go ahead and give my two week notice, but in this economy i cant do that. My pride is damaged. but my head told me to accept the two week job, just incase the new lady doesnt like it. and leaves maybe 2 weeks would be enough experience to have the job. now i have 3 desks and 3 offices... one for purchasing, one for social work and one for paperwork and office stuff. I'm a busy lady. how to fit three forty hour jobs into one 40 hour a week position. wish me luck and send me positive vibes.
I'm sick. again, sinus thing. chest congestion. aches. I'm miserable.
my sex life has finally dwindled to a couple of times a week. THANK HEAVENS!!! but I miss the cuddling. i've just been exhausted, and not into it. and hes been listening to me saying no.
i miss being okay menally. I was doing so well! but now I'm severly depressed and anxious. so bad I wont drive myself. i hope it doesnt get so bad that i quit driving all together again. I've dont it before. but yeah. I'm pretty down. missing be able to take out my anxiety on my self. but you know as an adult people frown upon that. but it's such a quick but lasting feeling. and i miss it. I've just grown up physicaly but mentally I feel like I'm still a teen trying to survive. I want to live not just survive. The sad part is Rich doesn really know how depressed I am. because he doesnt stay with me when I go to be he doesnt see or hear me cry myself to sleep. oh listen to my little pity party, sorry.
happy new year.
My other friend had her last day on wednesday. i didn't get her job (social worker) due to not having experience. But i'm good enough to be the inbetween girl while the new employee workes out her two weeks at her old job. so i was pissed because tuesday Sue told me Im not going to have the job but the next morning having her calling me to see if i was interested in doing it for two weeks.... grrr..the worst part was that she said she knew i was a loyal employee and wouldnt leave just because I didnt get the new job... oh how pissed was I. Almost enough to go ahead and give my two week notice, but in this economy i cant do that. My pride is damaged. but my head told me to accept the two week job, just incase the new lady doesnt like it. and leaves maybe 2 weeks would be enough experience to have the job. now i have 3 desks and 3 offices... one for purchasing, one for social work and one for paperwork and office stuff. I'm a busy lady. how to fit three forty hour jobs into one 40 hour a week position. wish me luck and send me positive vibes.
I'm sick. again, sinus thing. chest congestion. aches. I'm miserable.
my sex life has finally dwindled to a couple of times a week. THANK HEAVENS!!! but I miss the cuddling. i've just been exhausted, and not into it. and hes been listening to me saying no.
i miss being okay menally. I was doing so well! but now I'm severly depressed and anxious. so bad I wont drive myself. i hope it doesnt get so bad that i quit driving all together again. I've dont it before. but yeah. I'm pretty down. missing be able to take out my anxiety on my self. but you know as an adult people frown upon that. but it's such a quick but lasting feeling. and i miss it. I've just grown up physicaly but mentally I feel like I'm still a teen trying to survive. I want to live not just survive. The sad part is Rich doesn really know how depressed I am. because he doesnt stay with me when I go to be he doesnt see or hear me cry myself to sleep. oh listen to my little pity party, sorry.
happy new year.