been a while
well its been a few months... i've been well-ish. then this past week the anxiousness has returned... with snow and ice and bad things. like a tree falling through my dads roof trying to kill him. and costing him 4 grand to have it removed from his bedroom. thne who knows how much to patch the roof.. (he had just replaced the whole roof last spring....) but my christmas shopping is done for the most part. I need stocking stuffers and to mail out a few things.
I am still hopeful that my christmas present will be several months late and last at least 18 years.... you know what I mean, but alas nothing as of yet. its really hard to want something for so long and still not have it. If i want something I typically save up for it and buy it with in a few months.... but I guess its just not possible for this type of present....
I feel older this year already. I see wrinkles under my eyes and the beginnings of crows feet... so stupid.
I miss people alot some days. How we used to be so inseperable. how we could lean on each other for anything, and everything. how I could get a hug when I wanted or needed one and I didnt get the " i just got home give me a minute to relax " talk. I dont know. tis the season for seasonal depression.
Work is going ok. I've been comissioned for some power point presentation designing and set up. hich is a nice overtime chunk of change. 3 hours isn't too bad to create one of those. I should have stretched it out a bit longer hahaha. its my second commission so hopefully they wll continue to use me for that, because its easy money. and I like learning about new stuff. This one was about dysphagia. and the previous one was about a new program for walking the elderly (i work in the elderly community still)
anyways I've been up for hours and it's only 6 am... stupid insomnia again... it's cyclic. some months I can sleep for days and some I cant sleep at all... oh well. I hope everyone is well and happy and healthy.
I am still hopeful that my christmas present will be several months late and last at least 18 years.... you know what I mean, but alas nothing as of yet. its really hard to want something for so long and still not have it. If i want something I typically save up for it and buy it with in a few months.... but I guess its just not possible for this type of present....
I feel older this year already. I see wrinkles under my eyes and the beginnings of crows feet... so stupid.
I miss people alot some days. How we used to be so inseperable. how we could lean on each other for anything, and everything. how I could get a hug when I wanted or needed one and I didnt get the " i just got home give me a minute to relax " talk. I dont know. tis the season for seasonal depression.
Work is going ok. I've been comissioned for some power point presentation designing and set up. hich is a nice overtime chunk of change. 3 hours isn't too bad to create one of those. I should have stretched it out a bit longer hahaha. its my second commission so hopefully they wll continue to use me for that, because its easy money. and I like learning about new stuff. This one was about dysphagia. and the previous one was about a new program for walking the elderly (i work in the elderly community still)
anyways I've been up for hours and it's only 6 am... stupid insomnia again... it's cyclic. some months I can sleep for days and some I cant sleep at all... oh well. I hope everyone is well and happy and healthy.