friends make my head ache
I am not the perfect friend. I may not always be there at your side, but I assure you that you are always in my mind.
Sometimes, I can't help but think if I ever cross my friends' minds. It may not be a big deal for everyone, but my random weirdness is making me worry. What if they've forgotten all about me? What if they don't consider me as a close friend anymore? What if they're just obliged to buzz me whenever I'm online? The very thought of a flood of what-ifs is unbearable. @__@
I may just be paranoid or something, wanting a friend to tell me his/her latest experiences, happenings, loves and lives. I feel I'm being left out, especially when we get together. They talk about each other's latest events (which they talked about before), while I know nothing. It feels like the person involved isn't trusting you like he/she trusted you before. *head desks* I know, I know, it may be because of the passing of time, making that person feel a little awkward around you because you haven't seen or spoken for 6 months or more. But, ugh!
...... Or maybe it's just me, missing a part of my good, old life. Maybe it's really me who needs a listening ear, someone who will readily offer his/her shoulder and share with me all the hopes, ambitions, frustrations and disappointments that life gave us.
Sumpungin talaga ako. (>__<)
Or just plain crazy.