The other side...
The job at Jekel is alright. Sure, I don't get paid much but honestly, it's not worth getting paid much. Easiest factory work i've ever had.
It just gives you so much time to think, or in my case, to daydream. About what could have been. The "what if's" in my life. What if I never moved back to Tennesee from Ohio? What if I had focused on school when I was in high school, or college? What if I had listend to some of my closest friends and not moved up to murray? What if?
Irrevelent or not, I've been thinking about it. I can't seem to stop. That's the thing about this overnight work. It's silent when I get home. My thoughts run rampant. And I wonder.
When I was in Ohio, I was close to this girl. We did everything together. This was back when I was only like 12 years old, but we were tight, you know? I was only there for 2 years. When I moved back, me and jenelle kept in touch. We'd write each other every few weeks. We stayed close. A few years ago somethign happend with her mom and we lost touch. Her and her brother had to move in a hurry. I havn't heard from them since. It's been almost 4 years since then, and I can't find a trace. I even hired a guy to track them down but it didn't work out.
If I never came back....What if?
I never really paid much attention in school. Most of the time, everything was too easy. It didn't interest me so the second class stopped I never thought about it again. I barely did any homework in school and it showed in my grades. I was a straight C student. I could have gone Honors if I'd have simply done that busy work. I might have had a scholership better then I have now. And in college, I screwed up royal. I am the first member of my family to go to college. And I let them all down. I had fun, I did my own thing. I didn't really do anything for the classes untill the assignment was due. And it showed. What If I'd have done what I went to college to do in the first place the first time?
If I'd have done my work....What if?
David and Shawn know why I moved up here. Hell, most of my old crew from C-town know. If my sister don't know, she has enough information to suspect. David and Shawn have been my closest friends since was was six years old. No one, not even Jamell know me as well as they do. They told me I was an Idiot to do this. Only in hindsight am I begining to realize how right they were. Coming here basicly severed me from my crew at home. I don't know what's going on with them. I havn't been able to talk to them in months. Where would I be today if I had taken their consel, and let it be. What if I had moved in a place in C-town close to where david, shawn, sam and the rest all lived.
What if I wasn't alone....What if?
It just gives you so much time to think, or in my case, to daydream. About what could have been. The "what if's" in my life. What if I never moved back to Tennesee from Ohio? What if I had focused on school when I was in high school, or college? What if I had listend to some of my closest friends and not moved up to murray? What if?
Irrevelent or not, I've been thinking about it. I can't seem to stop. That's the thing about this overnight work. It's silent when I get home. My thoughts run rampant. And I wonder.
When I was in Ohio, I was close to this girl. We did everything together. This was back when I was only like 12 years old, but we were tight, you know? I was only there for 2 years. When I moved back, me and jenelle kept in touch. We'd write each other every few weeks. We stayed close. A few years ago somethign happend with her mom and we lost touch. Her and her brother had to move in a hurry. I havn't heard from them since. It's been almost 4 years since then, and I can't find a trace. I even hired a guy to track them down but it didn't work out.
If I never came back....What if?
I never really paid much attention in school. Most of the time, everything was too easy. It didn't interest me so the second class stopped I never thought about it again. I barely did any homework in school and it showed in my grades. I was a straight C student. I could have gone Honors if I'd have simply done that busy work. I might have had a scholership better then I have now. And in college, I screwed up royal. I am the first member of my family to go to college. And I let them all down. I had fun, I did my own thing. I didn't really do anything for the classes untill the assignment was due. And it showed. What If I'd have done what I went to college to do in the first place the first time?
If I'd have done my work....What if?
David and Shawn know why I moved up here. Hell, most of my old crew from C-town know. If my sister don't know, she has enough information to suspect. David and Shawn have been my closest friends since was was six years old. No one, not even Jamell know me as well as they do. They told me I was an Idiot to do this. Only in hindsight am I begining to realize how right they were. Coming here basicly severed me from my crew at home. I don't know what's going on with them. I havn't been able to talk to them in months. Where would I be today if I had taken their consel, and let it be. What if I had moved in a place in C-town close to where david, shawn, sam and the rest all lived.
What if I wasn't alone....What if?