Final Words
So, it doesn't look hopeful for jeM and I and I'm not really all that surprised. I have decided to just get over him instead of holding on to what isn't there anymore. Life isn't about sitting around hoping someone will change its about finding someone who is already what you need. I am going to have this child, I am going to raise it alone and I wont have some quarrel be my focus. I am going to get ready for this baby and keep little boys away from it. It doesn't need to end up having a chemical dependency, if you are on drugs you don't deserve to be around a child. I myself WAS guilty of this but I have grown up now and realized it wasn't fair or right to my daughter. This is why I quit. And if Jeremy wants to grow up and show that he is responsible enough to be a respectable father maybe in time he can slowly come into our lives but the minute he goes back he is done there aren't 3 chances there is one. I am not being un-fair to the child if anything I am protecting my child from being exposed to the unnecessary. I will do what I have to, to prevent the child from being hurt.