So now i am free! And still me! No matter what i am always me!
So now i have not writeen for a while... I am now sitting with shelly discussing how i have opened cans in our apartment already... Simply put, i have campbells soup that has the pull thingie on the top to open it... Perhaps there are perks to shopping at your parents house for food rather then buying your own at the dollar store? LOL im such an asshole sometimes. So anyways, i have moved into 1775 Lisa Drive Indiana Pa 15701... i would tell you the apartment number but i talk with a lot of perverts online and i dont want anyone just showing up... although someone could just come here and look for me... Kinda scary huh? Since i last wrote a lot has happened OBVIOUSLY it is me we are talking about... You know what i think i am going to write in here more... alot of people read this shit and that is kinda scary as well... I leave myself open for criticism quite often... Which is probablly why people usually either do or dont like me... either way it is one extreme or the other. And you wanna know what else, i dont really care... My feelings can be wrapped up in one meaningful video, No Doubt, "Its My Life"...
So there are other aspects of my life that have been holding up... I am still a reformed slut.,.. for the most part, although i have had a few sexual encounters they have been of good taste and i knew the person for atleast a day. Except for the guy i slept with with ryan in a threesome... I have turned down two threesomes and declined sex to several people... even hot ones... I am getting weak in the knees though... Its been almost a month since i really had sex... Good sex that is...
My mom is is the hospital with pnumonia... and i kinda want to go see her so i think i might have to let you bois and girls go because i also have to go to work tonight... Speaking of which, work is going well... I actually sell more than most... Suprise suprise... And tomorrow i am going to go to Luther Ford cuz i might end up working there as a car salesman... How slimy...
So anyways i was thinking last night... All of my pictures in my room have switched from pictures of me to pictures of my neice... To think that one day i would love someone else more than myself is kinda wierd... I would rather see her pictures up around the house rather than mine... She is precious... But that kinda freaks me out... I never thought i would love anyone more than myself...
So here is a thought to leave you with... I wrote this... Let me know what you think...
You led the Way
Instantaneously following the
Inevitable drastic deficiency of my
Cherished lover I acceptably
Slip into the opaque abyss
Spiraling south
On the brink of suicide
I gasp for air
Grasping what is no longer there
The closed window panes rattle
As the smoldering fire crackles
And I lie on the cold floor
Of this one room world
Where I remain to this day
Curled and hidden
For this poem to be written
Excruciating pain as I
Drink the beautiful venom
That I now thrive upon
That drives me gone
The poison we grew
When we were together
Our invisible concoction
It controls me now
And undoubtedly will forever
As I continue on this endeavor
I feel the bed spinning
Twisting the harness
I now reside, in a white universe
Held back from everything
Stuck on leather straps
Tearing my skin from deep down within
I drift in and out
Remembering the times
Sunny days on gloomy weather
Smiling eyes on dead used leather
The dots on the floor
Little and rouge
That I haven’t seen in a while
Brings back the memory
Of me and You
How you left when we were true
If only I would have knew
My future would have not been thru
Our love is no longer new
But now black and blue
I levitate away
Like dust I float on the wind
Away from my old existence
I see myself
Or so I am told
Inside I am nothing but cold
With out you I feel so old
I don’t even recognize life
With out you, my lover
Who I think about even today
So till i write again my faithful fans! Peace...
So there are other aspects of my life that have been holding up... I am still a reformed slut.,.. for the most part, although i have had a few sexual encounters they have been of good taste and i knew the person for atleast a day. Except for the guy i slept with with ryan in a threesome... I have turned down two threesomes and declined sex to several people... even hot ones... I am getting weak in the knees though... Its been almost a month since i really had sex... Good sex that is...
My mom is is the hospital with pnumonia... and i kinda want to go see her so i think i might have to let you bois and girls go because i also have to go to work tonight... Speaking of which, work is going well... I actually sell more than most... Suprise suprise... And tomorrow i am going to go to Luther Ford cuz i might end up working there as a car salesman... How slimy...
So anyways i was thinking last night... All of my pictures in my room have switched from pictures of me to pictures of my neice... To think that one day i would love someone else more than myself is kinda wierd... I would rather see her pictures up around the house rather than mine... She is precious... But that kinda freaks me out... I never thought i would love anyone more than myself...
So here is a thought to leave you with... I wrote this... Let me know what you think...
You led the Way
Instantaneously following the
Inevitable drastic deficiency of my
Cherished lover I acceptably
Slip into the opaque abyss
Spiraling south
On the brink of suicide
I gasp for air
Grasping what is no longer there
The closed window panes rattle
As the smoldering fire crackles
And I lie on the cold floor
Of this one room world
Where I remain to this day
Curled and hidden
For this poem to be written
Excruciating pain as I
Drink the beautiful venom
That I now thrive upon
That drives me gone
The poison we grew
When we were together
Our invisible concoction
It controls me now
And undoubtedly will forever
As I continue on this endeavor
I feel the bed spinning
Twisting the harness
I now reside, in a white universe
Held back from everything
Stuck on leather straps
Tearing my skin from deep down within
I drift in and out
Remembering the times
Sunny days on gloomy weather
Smiling eyes on dead used leather
The dots on the floor
Little and rouge
That I haven’t seen in a while
Brings back the memory
Of me and You
How you left when we were true
If only I would have knew
My future would have not been thru
Our love is no longer new
But now black and blue
I levitate away
Like dust I float on the wind
Away from my old existence
I see myself
Or so I am told
Inside I am nothing but cold
With out you I feel so old
I don’t even recognize life
With out you, my lover
Who I think about even today
So till i write again my faithful fans! Peace...