thinking...
ive been thinking alot lately, just about everything.
vina is coming back next week, me and becca are going to go pick her up, im excited,b ut i cant seem to bring my self to an honest smile.
ive been getting really close with a friend named calvin, he is like my best friend, and ive messed things up a few times with my best friends because i tend to fall for them, but im still just a friend to them... well, i hear about these boys i hang out with hooking up and everything and honestly when i hear about him its the only time it bothers me.
i really love spending time with him and i smile alot... but i dont know what to think, because i dont want to be a girl he hooks up with i want to be a friend he can talk to, he can trust, he can smile around.
but at the same time, i want to be the one he hugs, and gives a kiss too.... i know i cant have that though, and its ok... its ok.............
vina is coming back next week, me and becca are going to go pick her up, im excited,b ut i cant seem to bring my self to an honest smile.
ive been getting really close with a friend named calvin, he is like my best friend, and ive messed things up a few times with my best friends because i tend to fall for them, but im still just a friend to them... well, i hear about these boys i hang out with hooking up and everything and honestly when i hear about him its the only time it bothers me.
i really love spending time with him and i smile alot... but i dont know what to think, because i dont want to be a girl he hooks up with i want to be a friend he can talk to, he can trust, he can smile around.
but at the same time, i want to be the one he hugs, and gives a kiss too.... i know i cant have that though, and its ok... its ok.............