It's a sick sad little world

Sep 21, 2008 21:20

You know what's been bothering me most lately: the fact that when you're smart and strong as a woman, you're the scariest thing in the world to men. Like you're carrying a disease they'd rather not catch.

- My sister got turned down for being to clear about what she wanted. The guy chickened out on a pretty sweet deal because "he got hurt too much" and "he's in love with someone else" (who turned him down like half a dozen times). Bullshit.

- My mum won't leave her boyfriend because she's afraid she'll never find someone else who can stand the fact that she's smart and independant. Her relationship sucks because the man doesn't want to commit, not even after nine long years. That he's taking her completely for granted, is not something she's willing to see.

- My friend winifred , who's smart and wonderful, can't get a date because... Well, I don't really know why. She's a hard worker and makes her own life, she's pretty and she's got half a brain. Probably applies to the same category as my mum and sister. It sucks.

I'm sick and tired of seeing these dumb, -dare I say it- ugly and completely boring girls get guys, get married, have kids and have an extraordinarily normal life. But these guys get to play the hunter and the care-taker and that's what they want, I guess. They don't see however, that a girl like me nééds that hunter and care-taker in her life, to keep her warm at night. Even if she's perfectly able to hunt for herself.

Granted, I don't want the ordinary life, I want to travel and grow as a person and live my life, but is it so damn hard to find a man who will match that? Who'll see the world with me, at some point have the kids and will just grow old with crazy old me? Is that really too much to ask?

I'm funny, I'm smart and damned, I'm beautiful, too.
I have no genetic illnesses, no dead-beat relatives and my mum is healthy enough to live to 100.
I work hard, follow through on the goals I've set and I don't mind doing my part of the household.
Hell, I'm good in bed too.

What is wrong with me?
Am I too picky or are they too blind?

dear diary, one of those days

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