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Up to now my day has been kinda weird. Anna is sick and she took her sweet time getting ready for work, so we arrived here late.
I got online -early morning ritual- and discovered a message from Niki on MySpace. He'd sent me the lyrics to a VNV Nation song that I love. I was the one to get him into VNV in the first place, but I doubt he knows how much I love those lyrics. It got me all warm and confused for a moment. Me being 95% over him, it only took a short pang of regret to remind me of the great feeling of relief I feel now that I'm no longer in that destructive relationship.
It's weird how it used to be me to send him lyrics of songs that reminded me of him. I quit doing that because a) he never answered and I figured he didn't apreciate it, b) it was totally self-destructive to do so. So imagine my surprise when that message popped up this morning.
This is not a cry for help. It's just an entry to tell you it happened.
The rest of my morning I spent looking for more jobs in Japan and China. I've applied for so many jobs in NYC already and they've all been ignoring me so far, so I figured I'd look for things that interest me in Tokyo and Hong Kong. Somehow I ended up applying to be an English teacher in China. Probably because 80% of all job ads were of that nature and this particular organisation offered a good package including flight, visa, housing and competitive pay.
I've been having these stress rashes on my hands again and my stomach hasn't felt this bad since my parents got divorced thirteen years ago. It's probably because I REALLY want this job in Hong Kong that I'm going to be applying for next week. And if that falls through, I want a job either in Tokyo or Hong Kong, it's that simple.
Long sentence short: I don't want to stay in Belgium, I know for a fact I'm not born for that. Despite everything I have in Belgium to keep me there, I just can't stay. But this whole stress-reaction thing isn't working for me at all. I hardly sleep, I have the constant feeling that I need to throw up and the oinment for my hands is making me nauseous...
Tonight, I have my goodbye dinner with my colleagues at the yummy Italian restaurant here in Koblenz. I bought them all a bar of Cote d'Or chocolate to say 'thank you' and I'll probably add a little paper to all of them with my phone number and email address on it. Networking is everything, right? ;D
Anyway, I'm really looking forward to it. They're a great bunch of people and I'm going to miss them a little.
Tomorrow is my last presentation, I should probably look at it again before going home today, I won't have time to practise at home at all.
I got a tiny new task today, reading an article for a Swedish doctorate student who's doing a study on the German Assistance service at Scania. The article is in German and he'd like an English overview. No problemo dude. Not like I have anything better to do...
I got online -early morning ritual- and discovered a message from Niki on MySpace. He'd sent me the lyrics to a VNV Nation song that I love. I was the one to get him into VNV in the first place, but I doubt he knows how much I love those lyrics. It got me all warm and confused for a moment. Me being 95% over him, it only took a short pang of regret to remind me of the great feeling of relief I feel now that I'm no longer in that destructive relationship.
It's weird how it used to be me to send him lyrics of songs that reminded me of him. I quit doing that because a) he never answered and I figured he didn't apreciate it, b) it was totally self-destructive to do so. So imagine my surprise when that message popped up this morning.
This is not a cry for help. It's just an entry to tell you it happened.
The rest of my morning I spent looking for more jobs in Japan and China. I've applied for so many jobs in NYC already and they've all been ignoring me so far, so I figured I'd look for things that interest me in Tokyo and Hong Kong. Somehow I ended up applying to be an English teacher in China. Probably because 80% of all job ads were of that nature and this particular organisation offered a good package including flight, visa, housing and competitive pay.
I've been having these stress rashes on my hands again and my stomach hasn't felt this bad since my parents got divorced thirteen years ago. It's probably because I REALLY want this job in Hong Kong that I'm going to be applying for next week. And if that falls through, I want a job either in Tokyo or Hong Kong, it's that simple.
Long sentence short: I don't want to stay in Belgium, I know for a fact I'm not born for that. Despite everything I have in Belgium to keep me there, I just can't stay. But this whole stress-reaction thing isn't working for me at all. I hardly sleep, I have the constant feeling that I need to throw up and the oinment for my hands is making me nauseous...
Tonight, I have my goodbye dinner with my colleagues at the yummy Italian restaurant here in Koblenz. I bought them all a bar of Cote d'Or chocolate to say 'thank you' and I'll probably add a little paper to all of them with my phone number and email address on it. Networking is everything, right? ;D
Anyway, I'm really looking forward to it. They're a great bunch of people and I'm going to miss them a little.
Tomorrow is my last presentation, I should probably look at it again before going home today, I won't have time to practise at home at all.
I got a tiny new task today, reading an article for a Swedish doctorate student who's doing a study on the German Assistance service at Scania. The article is in German and he'd like an English overview. No problemo dude. Not like I have anything better to do...