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The last couple days have sucked!
It started yesterday when i had to go to the doctor. when we got there, we waited 35 fucking minutes in the waiting room, and then some doogie fucking howser came and got me and took my temperature, etc. and then sat me in this room for another 30 minutes. and then the doctor came, and told me everything i had learned only a few hours earlier on webmd. and then he sent me to go get blood tests at general hospital. On the way there, we were stopped at this traffic light, and this douche in a classic car was yelling to these douche kids on a motorbike, for speeding or something. Just as the light was about to turn green, he was like "see you in the morgue" and then got back into his car. and i couldnt help but laugh at his stupidity, because 1. i was really bitter from being at the doctor 2. it struck me that his statement was inherently flawed because a) seeing the motorbike kids at the morgue would require the classic car driver to die from either reckless driving on his part or on the part of another driver. either way, it would require the classic car driver to die, something i assume he wouldnt want and b) you cant see people when your dead. I got really angry at the world in that moment. and then when we were turning into general hospital, i saw this jackass on one of those brightly colored street bikes, but he was in a fucking suit and tie, and i just wanted to yell at him. needless to say its been a bitter few days. but thats my diatribe on motorbike drivers and douches in classic cars who yell at people from their windows. back to the story.
the blood tests werent that bad but it got really short of breath and my wheezey from getting blood drawn, but i suppose it wasnt as good as lindsays passing out in the waiting room story. plus, my arm is still sore and the little mark i have from where they drew the blood is bothering me. i dont know why, but it just brings back nauseous (is that spelled right?) memories. I could never be a junkie.
ANYWAY i got my results back today and i have fucking mono AND strep throat. who the hell gets mono and strep throat at the same time?!?! im out of school at least until tuesday, if not then for up to two weeks, and im out of lacrosse for the season because the doctor is afraid im going to rupture my enlarged spleen. Im really disappointed and angry and upset. ugh. fuck mono. ive missed so much school, and i cant get any work done because the minute i move i just like, pass out and die. I get all lightheaded and my head feels like its going to explode and then my entire body aches. ughh. but the thing is, im going to get so behind, and plus, i have to finish a venue and a 1/4 by sunday. fuck school, and fuck mono. on the plus side, ive started watching season one of QaF again. that does make up for a lot though.
fuck.
this was a really depressing entry, and im sorry.
leave me cheery messages, because im really depressed.
ps. i was going to put my little mood icon as "sick" but the smily face legitimately like pukes up this stream of brown colored something. its sickening, so i changed it for your benefit. thank me later.