pouring light into the dark corners of the morally unjust
(***I am actually quite bored as of the moment. I can't wait to play some hockey again tonight, albeit at Great Skate...eh.***)
I have all of these thoughts running through my mind. I can't settle for one person. I have no good examples that lead me into this endless cycle. I WANT to settle for one person. I want the happy ending. I just don't have enough balls to do it. I think this is quite honest. My thoughts are just to much to overcome.
I just paid a huge fine for a ticket i got a little bit ago today in Maryland Heights. The sickest thing I felt was that the lady at the counter did not care less about the implications or my complications of receiving the letter in the mail too late. All she cared about was that $250 I was handing her. She gives me a receipt and that's it? I ask her if my ticket was seriously amended down to the improper muffler? She quickly nodded yes and moved on. So emotionless. The government center in Maryland Heights looks like a castle now. It's brand new, kinda like when St. Charles City made there new facility off of Zumbehl a few years ago or whatever. Just makes me feel as if more and more, the cities and municipalities are just about the money. Break a law, pay money. Period. No laws that govern morality should EVER be like this!Yet our democracy has become just like this. I feel as if i was cheated out of 250 dollars anyways. I was not going as fast as they "claimed" that i was. Minus your technology and your manpower to "catch" me and pull me over for it. I was never in a position to even defend myself. Let alone, not pay anything if i did prove my innocence. It would have costed me more money to fight the ticket than to just have my lawyer amend it down to the "improper muffler" so they can collect on the "mistake" that i may have made? Now the lawyer and the gov't get's there money, and I get FUCKED. How about that. Where's the justice or moral law in that? I'm thinking Mr. Kant would be infuriated insofar as to why the fucking government turned into such a mess in the first place?! Well, since we are naturally greedy in a sense, we have "Capitalized" our justice. (Capitalized meaning the system of capitalism.)
So I stood up till 3am last night studying and studying and studying my Metaphysics book for our final this morning. When i finally went to take it, and finished, i felt really understanding of the material now. This guy i had as a professor was just absolutely wonderful. I haven't had a professor/instructor/teacher in my life in soooo long that actually had structure and meaning into the work i was doing and the knowledge i was gaining, the discovery structures i was attaining, the horizons into a world structure that i was entering into. I now felt much better when i knew the class was done. I achieved a milestone today. I knew that i can get beyond my perceived limitations on education and still move on to harder and harder material. I also felt the same way about my Statistics final, sort of. The test in there was MUCH harder than i had first anticipated, more so since i forgot some of the functions we learned in Chapters 5-6....but this merely slew me down. I felt i finished strongly and I am hoping that if i get at least 185 out of 200 points i will have an A in the class again, if not it might be a B. Still I'll settle for this. I think the lowest grades i've got right now are just B's anyways. on avg my GPA should stay around 3.5.
I'd like your thoughts from the 2nd paragraph mostly though :)
I have all of these thoughts running through my mind. I can't settle for one person. I have no good examples that lead me into this endless cycle. I WANT to settle for one person. I want the happy ending. I just don't have enough balls to do it. I think this is quite honest. My thoughts are just to much to overcome.
I just paid a huge fine for a ticket i got a little bit ago today in Maryland Heights. The sickest thing I felt was that the lady at the counter did not care less about the implications or my complications of receiving the letter in the mail too late. All she cared about was that $250 I was handing her. She gives me a receipt and that's it? I ask her if my ticket was seriously amended down to the improper muffler? She quickly nodded yes and moved on. So emotionless. The government center in Maryland Heights looks like a castle now. It's brand new, kinda like when St. Charles City made there new facility off of Zumbehl a few years ago or whatever. Just makes me feel as if more and more, the cities and municipalities are just about the money. Break a law, pay money. Period. No laws that govern morality should EVER be like this!Yet our democracy has become just like this. I feel as if i was cheated out of 250 dollars anyways. I was not going as fast as they "claimed" that i was. Minus your technology and your manpower to "catch" me and pull me over for it. I was never in a position to even defend myself. Let alone, not pay anything if i did prove my innocence. It would have costed me more money to fight the ticket than to just have my lawyer amend it down to the "improper muffler" so they can collect on the "mistake" that i may have made? Now the lawyer and the gov't get's there money, and I get FUCKED. How about that. Where's the justice or moral law in that? I'm thinking Mr. Kant would be infuriated insofar as to why the fucking government turned into such a mess in the first place?! Well, since we are naturally greedy in a sense, we have "Capitalized" our justice. (Capitalized meaning the system of capitalism.)
So I stood up till 3am last night studying and studying and studying my Metaphysics book for our final this morning. When i finally went to take it, and finished, i felt really understanding of the material now. This guy i had as a professor was just absolutely wonderful. I haven't had a professor/instructor/teacher in my life in soooo long that actually had structure and meaning into the work i was doing and the knowledge i was gaining, the discovery structures i was attaining, the horizons into a world structure that i was entering into. I now felt much better when i knew the class was done. I achieved a milestone today. I knew that i can get beyond my perceived limitations on education and still move on to harder and harder material. I also felt the same way about my Statistics final, sort of. The test in there was MUCH harder than i had first anticipated, more so since i forgot some of the functions we learned in Chapters 5-6....but this merely slew me down. I felt i finished strongly and I am hoping that if i get at least 185 out of 200 points i will have an A in the class again, if not it might be a B. Still I'll settle for this. I think the lowest grades i've got right now are just B's anyways. on avg my GPA should stay around 3.5.
I'd like your thoughts from the 2nd paragraph mostly though :)