husbands and scones
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last night i went out for tea with shireen, we were talking, stream of consciousness talking, i opened my mouth and out came "lets go to brunch on sunday, then go find husbands, they've got really good scones on sudbury street" I dont think i have ever seen her jaw drop that low.
kir has been trying to convince me to actively date and seek out a relationship for years, i have been non responsive. i'm not interested, i dont want to be in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship, i want to be with someone i LIKE and i want the reason we are together to be that we like each other. anyways after far too much nagging i told him i would try again. i dont know why, i dont want to, and yet i do. i have a crush on someone else, but it is a crush of convenience. the inattainable crush that you would never pursue but is there as a roadblock to all the crappiness involved in reality.
Its all all about the voids. the job void in my life has been filled, the condo void looks like it will be a while off, so lets fill the man void.
The hunt for a home is going nowhere, very very quickly, and is frustrating me no end.
Last week i went to cornwall, my room smelled like feet but i spent most of the night wandering the streets thinking, too much thinking.
Work has been busy, and with that comes a certain degree of satisfaction in what i am doing. Who would have guessed when I started I'd be enjoying this.
The past two weekends have been spent up north, and as blissful as blissful can be my legs no longer glow in the dark. I was chased by a snake. I was skunked. The dog i was with caught and almost killed a squirrel, and as trained as he is, "stop you psycho murdering freak" is not one of his commands, the word i was looking for was "aus". I could float in the lake for days.
I think I will be jumping out of a plane for my birthday.
Tonight I will ride, and fall asleep on my horse.
last night i went out for tea with shireen, we were talking, stream of consciousness talking, i opened my mouth and out came "lets go to brunch on sunday, then go find husbands, they've got really good scones on sudbury street" I dont think i have ever seen her jaw drop that low.
kir has been trying to convince me to actively date and seek out a relationship for years, i have been non responsive. i'm not interested, i dont want to be in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship, i want to be with someone i LIKE and i want the reason we are together to be that we like each other. anyways after far too much nagging i told him i would try again. i dont know why, i dont want to, and yet i do. i have a crush on someone else, but it is a crush of convenience. the inattainable crush that you would never pursue but is there as a roadblock to all the crappiness involved in reality.
Its all all about the voids. the job void in my life has been filled, the condo void looks like it will be a while off, so lets fill the man void.
The hunt for a home is going nowhere, very very quickly, and is frustrating me no end.
Last week i went to cornwall, my room smelled like feet but i spent most of the night wandering the streets thinking, too much thinking.
Work has been busy, and with that comes a certain degree of satisfaction in what i am doing. Who would have guessed when I started I'd be enjoying this.
The past two weekends have been spent up north, and as blissful as blissful can be my legs no longer glow in the dark. I was chased by a snake. I was skunked. The dog i was with caught and almost killed a squirrel, and as trained as he is, "stop you psycho murdering freak" is not one of his commands, the word i was looking for was "aus". I could float in the lake for days.
I think I will be jumping out of a plane for my birthday.
Tonight I will ride, and fall asleep on my horse.