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Today I am still feeling unbelievable hurt and angry at Dan's behaviour yesterday. i have no idea why Cheryl feels threatened by me, because in all honesty he's the last person I'd ever try to do that I can think of. Not only that but my parents did the whole affair thing and I am completely against cheating. Add to that that it happened BEFORE I even spoke to her, when I did speak to her I really liked her. I thought she was really lovely and sweet and quite good for Dan.
I can't even put any words together for Dan, there aren't any I can say because he has completely dumbfounded me. I will not be there for him in the future. I feel used, completely used. I gave him money when I was skint myself. I gave him time earlier on this week when I needed it to clean my house so as I didn't get kicked out. All for nothing.
It's all that I really was to him. Nothing. I've been used in the most horrible way by someone I thought was my friend. I shouldn't feel too bad about the whole thing, as I have a lot of close friends, Louise, Amy, Hannah, Ste, Ste, Stu, Ben, Pig and Liz. And I'm not saying he was special, because he wasn't. He was just as close as any of them. I am just completely dumbfounded by his behaviour and I think Dave put it best when he text me this morning after I said I never realised how dispensable a friend I was:
"It's just Dan. No one else has thrown you away. And he's not being himself. I'm really really sorry."
Matt called Dan last night to have a chat with him about it, apparently Dan said sorry, sorries mean nothing. From what Matt says his other friends are shocked by his behaviour and I can now only say that I pity him. I've thrown friends away for Alex. And I found myself very, very alone when I finished with him.
Matt was not upset by the whole thing that happened, what he was upset with was that Dan told me to keep it secret. Matt even asked Dan no tot make my lie for him again, and it appeared last night that Dan did want me to lie again. Me telling him to go fuck himself is my present to Cheryl. You can now get on with your relationship where he isn't lying to you about me. But I wonder, now I know how easily he would have found it to lie about me to her whether a certain other thing that happened at a party that Matt told me about and got very heated about when I said "Oh no! Dan wouldn't do something like that" and Dan backed up did in fact happen. Oh well, not my business anymore. Hopefully she can trust him now I've gone.
Maybe that won't happen with them two. But in either case I pity them.
I can't even put any words together for Dan, there aren't any I can say because he has completely dumbfounded me. I will not be there for him in the future. I feel used, completely used. I gave him money when I was skint myself. I gave him time earlier on this week when I needed it to clean my house so as I didn't get kicked out. All for nothing.
It's all that I really was to him. Nothing. I've been used in the most horrible way by someone I thought was my friend. I shouldn't feel too bad about the whole thing, as I have a lot of close friends, Louise, Amy, Hannah, Ste, Ste, Stu, Ben, Pig and Liz. And I'm not saying he was special, because he wasn't. He was just as close as any of them. I am just completely dumbfounded by his behaviour and I think Dave put it best when he text me this morning after I said I never realised how dispensable a friend I was:
"It's just Dan. No one else has thrown you away. And he's not being himself. I'm really really sorry."
Matt called Dan last night to have a chat with him about it, apparently Dan said sorry, sorries mean nothing. From what Matt says his other friends are shocked by his behaviour and I can now only say that I pity him. I've thrown friends away for Alex. And I found myself very, very alone when I finished with him.
Matt was not upset by the whole thing that happened, what he was upset with was that Dan told me to keep it secret. Matt even asked Dan no tot make my lie for him again, and it appeared last night that Dan did want me to lie again. Me telling him to go fuck himself is my present to Cheryl. You can now get on with your relationship where he isn't lying to you about me. But I wonder, now I know how easily he would have found it to lie about me to her whether a certain other thing that happened at a party that Matt told me about and got very heated about when I said "Oh no! Dan wouldn't do something like that" and Dan backed up did in fact happen. Oh well, not my business anymore. Hopefully she can trust him now I've gone.
Maybe that won't happen with them two. But in either case I pity them.