sitting in the corner
ok so lets sit back
and remeniss a moment...
back to when there was no confusion.
back to when i knew what the hell was going on.
so...
this is like a weird case or deja vu.
ive seen this before.
or i thought so...?
and im like... being a bitch and i cant help it.
i try not to be mean... but i get rly pissy
i dont know why i am... but i am.
maybe its just getting close to girl issues... .
uhm... yea nvm we wont talk about that here.
so... catching up.
im still datin aj as we all know. hes rly sweet... but im seriously kinda lost. i know hes reading this so...
((hi babe))
this one is mostly for you.
i definetly cant say this like face to face cause its so... weird. idfk. but its like... i feel like somethings wrong. or if theres not like there should be. im not used to eveything being so perfect. so... happy in my relationship. i dont know. i mean i love it... but it makes me feel funny... this is the time when i get rly nervous easily and i get jealous easy so plz just hang in there. cause like i said this is about the time im used to being cheated on.
ugh you mean alot to me. and im not used to that... im not used to having someone wanting to be so close to me. its like, i like it.... but its new and weird... and idk how to explain it exactly. it gives me headaches... and sometimes when im driving i zone out just thinking about everything. how ive been a bitch. how i feel so bad cause i called u a asshole in my sleep, how much i love you, and how my mom treats me... its just tears me up... and it makes it so im depressed and tired all the damn time.
((thats why i sleep alot more lately.))
its not something that i can deal with... im no good at it. ive taken so much abuse since i was a kid... and its about to shoot me in the heart in about...lets see today is the 6th... 6 4=10... so.... 4 days... in 4 days ill wanna die, or my whole world will crash like Y2K for a few days... ill feel like shit, and i wont talk, i wont eat much, and i wont leave my room prolly... i dont answer the phone... and i just sleep and sleep... i pretty much isolate myself from the world around then. cause may 10th is the worst day of the year... every single year... i hate mothers day. more then any other day of the year.
((for those of you who dont know what may 10th is... youll see in a future blog most likely. either that or uh.... check out my hero section on me pro, and take a hint.))
im begging you not to take any of the mean things i might say to heart. im just venting when i say asshole or something.
o-my-god...
look at me rambling on and on...
sorry... sorry...
didnt mean to waste your time.
but thanks for it anyways.
and remeniss a moment...
back to when there was no confusion.
back to when i knew what the hell was going on.
so...
this is like a weird case or deja vu.
ive seen this before.
or i thought so...?
and im like... being a bitch and i cant help it.
i try not to be mean... but i get rly pissy
i dont know why i am... but i am.
maybe its just getting close to girl issues... .
uhm... yea nvm we wont talk about that here.
so... catching up.
im still datin aj as we all know. hes rly sweet... but im seriously kinda lost. i know hes reading this so...
((hi babe))
this one is mostly for you.
i definetly cant say this like face to face cause its so... weird. idfk. but its like... i feel like somethings wrong. or if theres not like there should be. im not used to eveything being so perfect. so... happy in my relationship. i dont know. i mean i love it... but it makes me feel funny... this is the time when i get rly nervous easily and i get jealous easy so plz just hang in there. cause like i said this is about the time im used to being cheated on.
ugh you mean alot to me. and im not used to that... im not used to having someone wanting to be so close to me. its like, i like it.... but its new and weird... and idk how to explain it exactly. it gives me headaches... and sometimes when im driving i zone out just thinking about everything. how ive been a bitch. how i feel so bad cause i called u a asshole in my sleep, how much i love you, and how my mom treats me... its just tears me up... and it makes it so im depressed and tired all the damn time.
((thats why i sleep alot more lately.))
its not something that i can deal with... im no good at it. ive taken so much abuse since i was a kid... and its about to shoot me in the heart in about...lets see today is the 6th... 6 4=10... so.... 4 days... in 4 days ill wanna die, or my whole world will crash like Y2K for a few days... ill feel like shit, and i wont talk, i wont eat much, and i wont leave my room prolly... i dont answer the phone... and i just sleep and sleep... i pretty much isolate myself from the world around then. cause may 10th is the worst day of the year... every single year... i hate mothers day. more then any other day of the year.
((for those of you who dont know what may 10th is... youll see in a future blog most likely. either that or uh.... check out my hero section on me pro, and take a hint.))
im begging you not to take any of the mean things i might say to heart. im just venting when i say asshole or something.
o-my-god...
look at me rambling on and on...
sorry... sorry...
didnt mean to waste your time.
but thanks for it anyways.